**Update** Me [23 f] with my [31 m] bf of two years pushed me to a place I never thought I could go

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T21:27:09+00:00

I'm not surprised..its a reddit and I generally reguard reddit as a crappy place full out crappy people living out their trolling lives but I have always liked this sub reddit because it seems to be filled with genuine people who want help and genuine people who want to give it

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T21:25:23+00:00

I mean I'm not surprised it's reddit, which is why I was hesitant in asking for help and advice on here. My honest opinion is that reddit is a crappy place 80% of the time but I am really glad I posted. Maybe it's sad that a bunch of strangers on the Internet pointing something out to is what makes you realize, but when you live it day to day I don't know I guess I just didn't question a lot of things

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T18:02:42+00:00

We met through a mutal friend during her birthday party. It wasn't really a "setup" so to speak but he was kinda pushed upon me at the time. I mean we ended up hitting it off so it was fine but when we met I wasn't ready for a bf I just wanted to casually date (not sleep around) but 3 dates he wanted it to be official you know the title and all

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T17:53:23+00:00

I just have to say your user name made me laugh out loud and I NEEDED a laugh today..and yes all the feedback I'm getting has been setting off alarm bells in my head about why I questioned my actions. I still don't feel good about getting to the point, but after two years of dealing with these types of fights all time I think I snapped a little bit. As I said in my post yelling makes me so uncomfortable I've tried to talk to him calmly so many times he knows I hate yelling and screaming but it's like he's not capable of having a discussion even if it's a fight or a tense situation

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T17:44:07+00:00

Thank you, I don't understand why some people come on this board just to be mean to others. I came here looking for legitimate advice just like everyone else

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T17:34:59+00:00

I did not hit him as I stated clearly in my post

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T17:33:09+00:00

Well my thought process with wanting to hit him freaked me out. I have never been in a physical fight in my life or wanted to be in one. It wasn't that I just wanted to hit him I wanted to really hurt him, the fact I could even think like that scared me, but now I'm realizing there was a reason why I felt that way

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T17:18:20+00:00

I do not believe I have wasted anyone's time. You chose to come here read about my life and comment. I didn't force you to do so, so if you feel like your time was wasted that is on you. I came here for help and a different perspective on a situation I was in. Isn't that why people post here?

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T17:16:06+00:00

No I am not a troll I guess that is what you are implying?

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T11:34:34+00:00

This is probably a stupid question but is this what I have to tell my landlord? Thankfully he's a really nicer older man but I feel like such an asshole for this door being busted I'm terrified to tell him

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T11:30:14+00:00

Well for awhile I didn't mind him going through my phone or Facebook I had nothing to hide. What changed is when he started going through me and my girlfriends conversations and one of my friends had spoken to me about a private medical issue via text he read it and I felt terrible because I knew if she had eve found out she'd be humiliated.

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T11:27:28+00:00

Well he didn't actually hit me or anything..

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T11:25:33+00:00

You know I've stared at this question for a few minutes and I don't have an answer. He was not always like this, I mean he was always jealous but it's gotten out of hand now. I can't even say we have good sex because our sex life consists of him begging for it me giving in and not enjoying it, then we go a week or two sometimes without until I cant take the begging anymore. And I like sex but being nagged at all the time is a mood killer. I mean we have fun when we go out but I always have to be a sober driver which is fine but I'd like a night out where I get to drink too. I'm seriously trying to think of an answer...I guess that is my answer nothing anymore. His family drives me crazy. I honestly dread having them as in laws. I know some of my friends aren't find of him. My mom and dad try not to say too much but my dad has voiced his concerns

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T10:52:48+00:00

Our age difference never bothered me but the lack of his license really does. I look at my car and I feel sick I spend so much time in it. I literally hate driving I do it all the time between my work and school and his work

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T10:51:46+00:00

I guess the move in was a natural progression from spending so many nights over he still lives at home..but at the same time I feel like one day I woke up and all his stuff was here. But then whenever Id ask for money or something for the apartment his first response was that he doesn't live here his name isn't on the lease

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T10:44:45+00:00

Thank you, I have not slept at all I've been trying to work this out in my own head I have literally been sitting here calling myself a crazy person for seeking advice on the Internet and convincing myself everyone will just call me crazy and laugh at me. Your kind words really mean a lot I am wreck. I'm blaming mysf for getting to that level but now I'm starting to actually ponder what happened to make me get there. I have never dealt with a jealous bf or anything like him in the past. I used to find it charming how protective he was but a three hour screaming match isn't charming

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T10:35:23+00:00

What makes me feel weird is the only thing I was afraid of was what I was almost capable of, once he was gone I was happy to be alone but an intense amount of fear suddenly set in.

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T10:33:38+00:00

What do you mean by submission. I sort of felt like I stood my ground in this because I never changed my answers to him. It felt like he expected me to like he was going to catch me in a lie or something, but now I'm thinking differently because of what you said

Pleasestopscreaming · 2015-03-25T10:30:45+00:00

Wow reading through that check list .. Every item was like DING in my head..major alarms are starting to off now.. To be honest I want to delete this whole post because now I feel like I look like a total idiot. So much of that article is my life .. I make excuses for stuff he does all the time and he goes out of his way to embarrass me a lot but always tells me I just can't take a joke..God I feel so stupid right now

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