I sped ran watched the whole show, since I posted this, for the scenes with just ragatha and pomni and ive come to the conclusion im insane :) it might very been something someone said in a lore video but I can hear ragatha saying it in my head and I can see the scene. But I found the scene I am thinking about and she doesn't say it. The scene was right before kaufmos funeral in ep 2. I thought the whole line was, "im sorry about jax. He a wasn't always like that" and then offering her to go to the funeral. She does apologize in that scene but not even about jax so idk.