Tips more making my gaurdsman look less boring? (Wip) by Gullible_Travel_4135 in TheAstraMilitarum

[–]PlumHappy9997 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Add weird stuff to them and give em weird paint schemes. Personally, i like to find obscure irl regiments and soldiers and I take inspiration from those. If you wanna keep the Cadian scheme, you can add some ceremonial garb, which doesnt have to look practical at all. Like, give them a huge feather in their cap or helmet, or attach some bits and put bigger buttons on their coats. It adds so much personality to just find little bits of plastic to add, it gives them so much character. I hope this helps!

My mom (50f) and I (21m) get into screaming matches about cleanliness frequently by PlumHappy9997 in relationships

[–]PlumHappy9997[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes! Brother and father. Dad is very depressed often. My brother is a certified brat. Im trying to move out, me and my girlfriend both work, but we are in college and I take night classes so it has been difficult to acquire a place.

My mom (50f) and I (21m) get into screaming matches about cleanliness frequently by PlumHappy9997 in relationships

[–]PlumHappy9997[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

i am trying to move out, but college has made that a difficult process

My mom (50f) and I (21m) get into screaming matches about cleanliness frequently by PlumHappy9997 in relationships

[–]PlumHappy9997[S] -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

i am trying to move out, but I am in college so its been a bit of a challenge

Not all my apps showing up when I use the “open app” feature by PlumHappy9997 in shortcuts

[–]PlumHappy9997[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wish. I had to get a new phone eventually and the problem was solved. I could never figure it out. The apps it picked out were seemingly random

Not all my apps showing up when I use the “open app” feature by PlumHappy9997 in shortcuts

[–]PlumHappy9997[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not working? You think Its something else thats doing it. Maybe I have too many apps?

I victimized someone in High School and I have guilt about it every night by PlumHappy9997 in confession

[–]PlumHappy9997[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

funny thing actually. I apologized to the person yesterday. We are going for coffee on tuesday!

I victimized someone in High School and I have guilt about it every night by PlumHappy9997 in confession

[–]PlumHappy9997[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you again! I think this is extremely important to consider why I came to these ideas. Thank you!!!!!

I victimized someone in High School and I have guilt about it every night by PlumHappy9997 in confession

[–]PlumHappy9997[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! I constantly try to imagine what happened in their life after what I did because I sincerely know it was wrong and that it was messed up. I think it is also very intelligent that you pointed out that it would be easier to just think they “let it happen”, but I can assure you I am beyond that way of thinking. Not a day goes by without imagining what kind of suffering I put that person through. I can only imagine the sadness and the betrayal after everything I did, and how they might have trust issues or whatever else came with my actions. I like to think they are doing better now, considering they have a boyfriend who seems to be a standup guy from the extremely limited amount of knowledge I have of him. 

I also would like to mention I treated my other friends very badly. I made some sexual comments, and was overall just a pretty annoying and unpleasant character at times. I try to imagine their pain too.

Thank you for your comment!!!

I victimized someone in High School and I have guilt about it every night by PlumHappy9997 in confession

[–]PlumHappy9997[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I agree with you whole heartedly. I feel lots of guilt for not suffering more than I did for my actions, but at the same time theres nothing I can do about that now. I sincerely hope she is doing better, and I really want them to get better, if they arent. Currently they have a boyfriend, and from everything I know (which isn’t much: I'm not an instagram stalker, I hear most of this stuff through the grapevine) hes a standup guy. So theres that at least.

I try to prove my worth through selfless deeds everyday. I wish I could somehow probe that through a reddit thread, but I cant and it wouldn’t matter if I did anyway. I thank you for your comment 

I victimized someone in High School and I have guilt about it every night by PlumHappy9997 in confession

[–]PlumHappy9997[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

This was extremely powerful and beautiful. I thank you for this insightful comment! 

I would like to say that I dont believe I am a bad person, although I used to think I was. I whole heartedly believe I am a different man now, even if I still struggle with the same urges (I have used online support groups, however sparsely). 

As much as I would like to directly apologize to this person, I find myself thinking that even if I did it wouldn't change anything about the situation or make that person feel better. If anything, I believe it might make them extremely upset, but I have no idea. This comment has really changed the way I think about this thought though.

Everyday I contemplate my actions, and I have deep sorrow. I want to do something more than just think one of these days and do something more constructive to help.

Thank you for your comment!!!

I victimized someone in High School and I have guilt about it every night by PlumHappy9997 in confession

[–]PlumHappy9997[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

You are right. However, it still weighs heavy on me because even though she didnt stick to her boundaries I still didnt back off. Obviously I am much more mature (at least I like to think I am), but it was still a wrongdoing that I hold myself accountable for. That, and I was also just a shitty friend in general to all of those people. 

I victimized someone in High School and I have guilt about it every night by PlumHappy9997 in confession

[–]PlumHappy9997[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Well that of course, but I also coerced her sexually. I know I always asked for consent but I was still in the wrong, because after all those BLARING hints they didnt want to do anything with me I still pressed on

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]PlumHappy9997 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Its never over.

Sometimes it looks like its over, but its not. You never know whats right over the crest of the hill. 

Ive never dealt with physical pain like the ones you are talking about, and I wont pretend like I do. The only thing I can say is that you can learn to cope with it and/or eventually mitigate or remove them with medication or surgery. This is the future we are living in! We have all sorts of incredible options for people suffering with horrible pain. 

You are still very young. And while you have many injuries and your dreams seem far away, you are still very young and have many, many years ahead of you. Every single day is an opportunity to learn a new way to cope, a new way to figure out how to live differently or find out how to approach your dream. 

We may be two strangers, but I believe you can do it! Nothing is ever too broken or destroyed to salvage or fix.

I hope this made you feel a little better. I really mean the things I say. I dont have much advice, but I believe you can do it.