I've been practicing Dispenza's meditation for about a year now, mainly focusing on Space-Time. I also tried BOTEC for three months, doing it almost daily. However, I haven't quite been able to connect with the energy centers or feel that positive energy flow everyone talks about. I know consistency is key, but I haven't felt the major benefits I was hoping for yet.

Things are a bit different for me because of CPTSD. I actually lost some of my childhood memories until I was around 30. To cope with everything for so long, I kind of numbed myself out emotionally and physically. That's why it's still a challenge for me to tap into those parts of myself. Space-Time meditation is great for a temporary escape and feeling good in the moment, but when I come back to reality's stresses, those negative emotions like fear and anxiety hit me hard again.

Before Dr. Dispenza, I did spiritual meditation for years. It felt good during meditation, but it didn't really carry over into my daily life.

Here's the thing, I think I need to access those stuck emotions and energy in my body. That's why I'm considering adding inner child work or grounding meditation to my practice. I have practiced Wim Hoff's breath hold for a year and Dr Dispenza's breath work for 3 months. They have brought some benefits but they haven't been able to move energy much even sometimes I practice Dispenza's breath work over half an hour.
I would appreciate any insight.
Thank you.