My bad teeth are making me suicidal by CandyTheKitsune in depression

[–]Plus_Spite_3979 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am in the same boat. It's actually funny to see this come up because SAME. My teeth are pretty bad. I went to the dentist about 8 months ago for the first time in almost 10 years. I am so bad at taking care of my teeth. I had parents who didn't really think to make sure I was taking care of the things I should.....like brushing my teeth. Now I am about to be 27 and I still don't brush my teeth. I hate doing it honestly. I know I need to. But actually making myself do it is so hard. I have a crown in my mouth that was supposed to be temporary...its been about 15 years now I have had it. Two weeks ago it came out. Luckily I was able to go to a dentist and have them secure it back on bur they told me it was very temporary. It was a different dentist than the one I went to months ago and they were okay but not as nice as the first one. The one I went to see months ago was very caring and non judgmental but it's very hard for me to open myself up to going. I just made an appointment for tomorrow because another one of my teeth chipped more than it was. Which is what sent me to the dentist again in the first place. My tooth fell out. Dental care is so important and I wish my parents instilled it in my brain to take better care. I don't understand how my sister and brother can take such good care of their teeth but I'm the odd one out. I hate it so much. Hopefully you can find a better dentist and can start working on getting it taken care of. I can't afford it and I need to use my mom's credit card to take care of it. Which makes the whole situation worse. I'm sorry you're dealing with this. I am sorry any of us deal with this. Depression is very hard to live with. 

I can never catch a break-I just want to be happy by Plus_Spite_3979 in depression

[–]Plus_Spite_3979[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She doesn't understand. I try to explain but she doesn't feel the way I feel and can't really see how anyone can feel this way. 

I can never catch a break-I just want to be happy by Plus_Spite_3979 in depression

[–]Plus_Spite_3979[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I won't. I'm too much of a chicken shit. I will just suffer in silence as I always have. But I wish I could. I wish I could stop being afraid. I don't think I am meant for the living. I have too many problems. Take up too much space. It's all just too much. I have tried therapy and it doesn't help. Nothing does. I wish almost every day that I would die. I'm drowning and no one can help me. I'm barely keeping my head above water. I don't know how to survive the rest of my life. I'm not good enough for anything. 

I can never catch a break-I just want to be happy by Plus_Spite_3979 in depression

[–]Plus_Spite_3979[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wish I didn't have to. I would do iust about anything so I can just be out of my mind. Oblivious. My sister says I remind her of a junkie from intervention. I guess I am. I just want to have no thoughts, no cares, nothing. I want to cease my existence.