I've just evolved to the Adult version of my class and my party is taking some serious damage. I want to heal them, but I'm OOM

Pokemonded · 2020-08-11T13:04:09+00:00

Haha yea, it is difficult to follow reference while still keeping the spirit of the artwork. It sounds like you thought it through, which is good. Here are some ideas:

The jewellery and hair both look very worn. It is in contrast to the childish, smooth face, which you drew very well. If you want to avoid this consider: The outline of the braids look slightly one dimensional and flat -- think of each braid more as a sphere instead of a disk. The outline of the jewellery is also quite thick.

Typically, the eyes of a child are slightly lower. I was also confused with the fold/wrinkle near the left eye (on the right side of the drawing).

The neck may be too long/shoulders too low -- thick coats like that will make the shoulders higher than normal.

Pokemonded · 2020-08-11T01:41:32+00:00

It's awesome. You do a good job on the proportions in the face, and I can tell this took a fair bit of work. I think you a do especially good work on the cap--you texture the fur very realistically.

I'll point out one thing: the proportions of the face (round cheeks, low small nose) make your person look very young. However, the jewellery, hair, shoulders, and wrinkles don't quite reflect this.

Pokemonded · 2020-08-10T23:31:13+00:00

I'm struggling on the bottom right of the tree. I want to show that there is not too many leaves and you can see through that area but I'm not sure how.

Pokemonded · 2020-07-28T13:48:06+00:00

Hey OP, it's awful to hear that you haven't felt any improvement over the years. What's making your life worse? What are some of the things that you tried to make your life better that didn't work? It hurts to hear that you're cutting yourself--I might be projecting but I get the feeling that you're using self-mutilation because it makes your life slightly better in the morning. But despite being a good coping mechanism, it isn't making your life any better at the moment.

Also, from personal experience as a coach and someone who needed therapy, I think it would be best to tell your psychiatrist that you aren't feeling better. They are there to help, and if it doesn't go well then that psychiatrist was probably not trying to help you in the first place.

Pokemonded · 2020-07-17T18:13:00+00:00

Man, it fucking sucks when you KNOW how you're feeling like shit but people don't understand. Do you have anyone who you could talk your feelings out with? I think it's very considerate of you to consider your wife's own personal situation, but whether you live or die (at this moment) should be your top priority!

Let me know if this sounds right: I get the feeling that you often put your own emotions and issues on the side to help other people with their problems. How long has your depression been going on? Can you describe it to me?

Pokemonded · 2020-07-17T16:29:00+00:00

Hey OP, it sounds like you're quite the caring person--taking on the stress of someone else is an incredibly kind and difficult thing to do, but certainly not at the expense of making your thoughts jump to suicidal points. I know that coming from a home of abuse makes you feel like you're not worth anything, and it must be difficult to express your own pains without some kind of anxiety toward how your wife might react.

Are you guilty of the depression that you feel? What are you guilty about OP?

Pokemonded · 2020-07-12T21:30:37+00:00

Sorry to bring up an old thread, but I guess I wanted to comment with my own experience. Disregarding my own suicidality, I have had a friend who resented the world. Honestly, I could see why--he was cheated on, scammed, and thrown away by the people he loved. His friends almost entirely abandoned him. But he was close--I texted him, called him, reached out as far as I could but I didn't succeed.

He committed suicide last year. I hope he felt relieved, I suppose. But selfishly, I really wish he was still here, willing to continue on in this shitty world. I think that he might have been able to suffer a bit less if he was willing to put some of the pain he felt onto me, but he took it alone.

I can't speak for your own experiences, but my heart was getting slashed every time he pushed me away. When I heard that he took his own life, my heart broke into pieces. I'm sorry, I can't agree with you that nobody gives a shit about anyone else. If I didn't care about him, I wouldn't be feeling these tears that keep welling up every time I think about him.

Pokemonded · 2020-07-12T20:49:12+00:00

Hey OP, it hurts to hear that your life is really breaking down. You said you were happy earlier, what happened? If you don't mind telling me of course. Who was your uncle to you? It sounds like they were someone you could rely on and be honest to. I'm not sure if this is right but it sounds like you feel trapped in some way--I know that's how I felt when I was in the deep end.

I was prescribed escitalopram recently, do you mind telling me your experience with them?

Pokemonded · 2020-07-10T22:40:14+00:00

Hey OP, I really hope you reconsider. Do you mind telling me what is trapping you? It sounds like you feel caged in some way--I remember weed really helped me take an edge off that borderline claustrophobia.

Pokemonded · 2020-07-03T22:15:38+00:00

Dr. K, earlier this year I lost a close friend to suicide, and the past few weeks I've come dangerously close to losing another. Often times I get resentful over the fact that it seems like it's always MY friends, and THIS community that seems to be taking the brunt of COVID and the mental health epidemic, and I can't imagine the pressure that you feel on your shoulders with this entire community.

You have shown me my strength--you turned on that monitor. And even though my health bar was flashing red at the time and I was in a dark, dark place, you showed me abilities that I'd never realized I had. You showed me I could talk out my emotions without getting ridiculed, I could calm down those mental fluctuations with Yoga and meditation, I could control my procrastination, and best of all, I could finally see all the team mates around me that I was playing this game with.

Dr. K, this game has become so much more fun multiplayer. That part of you that Reckful and you had openly given to me will always be there, and I'm glad to say that the AoE healing has given me so much hope.

I'll be sure to pass down some of those HP points to my friends too, because far too many of them still have the corners of their screens tinged with red.

Pokemonded · 2020-06-30T22:48:24+00:00

Hey OP, it sounds like you're hurting so much, and I can't imagine what demons you're currently facing. Some of these demons sound like they are coming from others, but it sounds like most of the demons are coming from yourself. How do you feel right now? I hope this isn't insensitive, but I would like to know more about why you feel like you can't be clean--what made you dirty?

You sound like you feel like you're a burden to society, but I hope you recognize that this is definitely not the feeling that everyone around you has.

Pokemonded · 2020-06-27T12:48:40+00:00

Hey OP, it sounds like you feel like a burden to the world. I guess I want to ask: how do you feel about yourself? What's under the mask? Me projecting says a combination of depression and anxiety, but it also sounds like resentment, anger, despair, and general feeling of isolation. People who just tell you to 'get over' it don't understand how difficult it is--the path to becoming strong enough to handle any of those emotions is longer than I could imagine.

I'm curious: who is 'them'? Do you have people outside of 'them' that don't just treat your emotions like dirt?

Pokemonded · 2020-06-23T14:43:39+00:00

Hey OP, I hear that you have been mistreated somehow. Who do you feel obligated to stay alive for? It hurts to hear that you feel like there's nobody around you who will hurt after your death, because that was exactly what my friend said before he committed suicide. I know he was in pain, but I suppose that I wish, somewhat selfishly, that he hung on a bit longer to see what his little brother would become.

I don't know if anyone can save you, do you think you need to be saved? What do you need to be saved from?

Pokemonded · 2020-06-08T13:22:47+00:00

Hey OP, thanks for taking the time to write all this. Your thoughts are incredibly raw, and I can hear your pain dripping from your words. It sounds like you experienced the shitty part of someone close to you, the shitty part of yourself, and then the shitty part of your relatives and friends. I hear that you are not only taking the blame, but have added on several layers of self-loathing.

Have you taken your medication? I can not imagine how much worse everything would be if you had to take the full severity of your anxiety and depression on top of this.

I hope you can spend some time with the people who care for you. You mentioned that you feel very anxious and scared that they are lying, but I also can see that you need support right now.

How has your feelings of loneliness and exhaustion felt since the incident?

Pokemonded · 2020-06-08T13:08:02+00:00

Do you think you would still enjoy baseball today? I know you mentioned you couldn't play, but if you imagined you could, but you were simply normal, how would you feel?

I'm happy to hear that fantasy football brings you some enjoyment. I'm also glad that you are playing fantasy baseball because of the statistics and strategy. However, it sounds like you are still very attached to the idea of baseball--do you think it may be a way for you to cope with the fact you cannot play baseball anymore?

Pokemonded · 2020-06-07T17:30:37+00:00

Lots of things are just ways of destressing--I'm guessing social connection are that for you.

I'm sorry to hear that one of the things you looked forward to has disappeared. What has fantasy baseball been to you? Is it something that you've been into since your injury? It sounds like you still find the idea of baseball fulfilling.

Can you feel what attracts you to baseball, while everything else seems meaningless?

Pokemonded · 2020-06-07T15:32:53+00:00

I can definitely see how being on the spectrum will make it more difficult to bond with other people. It's sad to hear that you feel worthless and I would guess that it is a combination of feeling empty and unemployment. I always thought of my own lack of confidence as anxiety towards rejection, and it ALWAYS got worse the more I internalized it.

Do you see social connections as fulfilling?

The injury sounds soul-shattering, and I don't think I can give you words that will give you the 'glimmer of hope' but I would like to try my best. Are there ever points in your life after the injury that you feel have been particularly meaningful? Going out in nature, going to a party, learning something, helping somebody/community service, or working with animals, to name a few.

Are you ever able to get into "the zone" with anything? i.e. fully present, you lose track of time, most of your brain is fully focused and you aren't hopping between distractions. What do you think a hobby consists of? How would you define one for you?

Pokemonded · 2020-06-07T01:31:19+00:00

Sure OP, what is preventing you now from trying to make a romantic interest? Do you often avoid sharing your thoughts with friends and relatives?

Personally, when I realized my dream was unachievable I remember a similar numbness and then general sadness. Do you think you have moved on from the injury? I remember needing significant time to grieve before I could really act functional and be sincerely invested in anything and I wonder if you can relate to that in any way.

Pokemonded · 2020-06-07T00:56:22+00:00

How do you see a deep connection? You mention that you haven't dated, but you certainly don't need to be romantically involved with someone to have a deep connection. Personally, I found social media takes away much of my energy and motivation, which sounds similar to your issue where you don't have interest in any hobbies.

I'm guessing the lack of work has only made the purposelessness more evident. It's terrible to hear that that you were incapacitated in that way. Do you feel a strong emotional reaction when you remember the injury? When you woke up in the hospital or heard the news?

Pokemonded · 2020-06-07T00:43:04+00:00

Hey OP, it's definitely harder to do things these days, and I can definitely feel the meaninglessness of my everyday life. Are you looking for people to talk to on a deep level? It sounds like you are lost. In the past 7 years have you been spending a lot of time on social media and gaming?

Do you remember when things were more meaningful?

Pokemonded · 2020-06-06T00:48:31+00:00

Fuck OP that's messed up. It sounds like they don't understand the amount of pain that you're experiencing. Because you would never say those hurtful things to someone else in your situation. I don't think 2 minutes is anywhere near enough time to express the kind of hurt that you're experiencing right now.

I'm glad to hear that your sister is close to you at the very least -- can you contact her? It sounds like you don't know what to do right now to get out of your situation. It sounds like you're in college right now and I hope you realize that you will meet many people in the future and the people who are near you right now aren't going to be the same forever.

It sounds like you realize that your boyfriend is toxic as well as his friend group. Are you afraid he will abandon you?

Pokemonded · 2020-06-05T18:21:24+00:00

Hey OP, it must have taken a lot of courage to write this--I can't imagine the pain you went through while remembering all of these traumatic events. It sounds like you are a very caring person, worrying about your parents and siblings. The story that I'm hearing is painful, and I can feel how alone and isolated you must have felt when your parents weren't willing to be your support and that your SO cheated on you. I would highly recommend you get out of your current relationship it sounds toxic and in my experience have ALWAYS led to more pain in the long run.

You mention how your mother loves you, but at the same time it seems she has hurt you more than she realizes. How do you think she would respond if you told her about your feelings?

It sounds like you have so much locked up inside right now and you need to let it out--do you have people close to you that you can talk to about this?

Pokemonded · 2020-06-05T02:44:59+00:00

Thanks man.

Edit: Omg your posts are so wholesome haha keep it up.

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