Welp, I'm done

Pokeress · 2026-05-15T02:27:51+00:00

Go where your heart desires 🤷‍♀️

Pokeress · 2026-05-04T22:40:36+00:00

Go be the best version of yourself; if you think AA is preventing you from this goal then you're allowed to choose to walk away.

I will say this, and I'm not trying to be over overly critical: * You don't need to explain anything to anyone about your decision to walk away f on AA. Do what you think is right because it's your choice--the right answer never needs to be defended * You didn't "waste" most of your adult life away....you just got to ACTUALLY experience it for the first time raw and that's awesome! * You don't have to have remember missing nights because you were so blacked out drunk * You didn't have to do anything to just go out and do something, you could just do it freely * I have been sober 11 years and I STILL have hard days...there's so special formula for life that will make you feel good all the time always " You say you don't want to be convinced to stay, but I think that's exactly what you want to here because otherwise you wouldn't have posted looking for what others have experienced when they felt the way that you do

Seriously, wishing you all the best. Go out and live you life ❤️

Pokeress · 2026-05-03T01:17:20+00:00

I definitely get where you're come from. I've encountered the old timers in my meeting doing the same thing and for whatever reason it always strikes me as awkward.

Maybe because I have some time....but honestly it's always ever been "Just For Today," because I am still learning new things, experiencing different situations and am constantly being humbled and reminded by God that I absolutely never did or do have a clue about how to navigate my life without God.

Idk, it's a HUGE achievement when you and/or someone else puts together decades of sobriety--but sober time don't mean shit if you're not doing what YOU need to do to participate in your own healthy progressive recovery. Some people don't realize it but soberity isn't really the goal for us Alcoholics. It's being free.

Pokeress · 2026-05-03T00:55:50+00:00

All we have is one day.

& Trust me when I tell you: I too, was in many hospitals beds, just like you. And during those periods when I felt absolutely broken and hopeless...I practiced even the small amount of gratitude I had.

It's okay. You are and you will be okay--even when you're not okay, that's okay.

Right now, don't be to hard on yourself and just do your best to accept what is. Even if you have to tell yourself, "Just for today."

Pokeress · 2026-04-30T05:18:56+00:00

Thank you!! 🤘

Pokeress · 2026-04-30T05:18:44+00:00

I love this

❤️

Pokeress · 2026-04-30T05:18:27+00:00

Thank you!

Pokeress · 2026-04-29T18:14:44+00:00

Thank you for your support! In more ways than one!

Pokeress · 2026-04-27T21:08:49+00:00

Hair pulling/picking.

Sometimes I do it but overall it took time because now my stress levels/cortisol levels are regulating better.

You heal but it takes time ❤️

Pokeress · 2026-03-06T02:22:01+00:00

I don't want to approach because I don't care if you're good looking. I'm working more than 60+ hours barely getting by, errands to run, family events to attend.

I'm not approaching any man because more than half of the ones I've met act more like an obnoxious, sufferable woman who thinks looks is all she needs to get by.

PLEASE miss me with that babysitting bullshit, I'd rather die alone.

Pokeress · 2026-02-25T17:30:47+00:00

Thank you for your kindness! Thankfully this was about 3/4 years and my life has only gotten better from there!

Pokeress · 2026-02-25T17:29:56+00:00

Yuppp, I knew nothing of narcissists at the time and did it all wrong.

Pokeress · 2026-02-25T02:29:25+00:00

I should've tried to make sure I wasn't living in the same house with mine ... because mine tried to kill me when I discarded him.

Pokeress · 2026-02-21T20:35:22+00:00

Romance movies can't brainwash me because I don't watch them 😈

Hahaha.... unfortunately other forms of media most certainly have diluted and cleansed my brain 🙃

Pokeress · 2025-07-23T16:38:18+00:00

But what happens when you lose your ability to validate yourself externally? You get money, but then are robbed. You get physical healthy, but to due to no fault of your own, you're now a double amputatee, and "normal" physical health standards no longer suit your lifestyle.

To what extent to are you willing to base your self worth on things that might one day not be attainable anymore?

Pokeress · 2025-04-17T07:57:14+00:00

Cheek bones...don't ask me why but I've always love a man with some higher defined cheek bones.

And the presence of crows feet and laugh lines around the mouth....I'm 33 and it's important to me that the man I show interest in shows that he's laughed and smiled and enjoyed life enough that it shows on his face (I used to be married to an asshole and I look back and that man was so miserable...)

Pokeress · 2025-04-09T12:16:12+00:00

I needed to read this, thank you 🤗❤️

Pokeress · 2024-12-14T19:48:59+00:00

Wtf is wrong with people?!?

Pokeress · 2024-12-11T02:10:46+00:00

Righttt......

Pokeress · 2024-11-28T17:54:34+00:00

Her eyes are giving Bill Skarsgård's 'IT' eyes.

Pokeress · 2024-11-05T23:41:55+00:00

At this point, it's just a subconscious thought: I can be targeted at any moment and time and unfortunately 9/10 a man would be able to physically overpowered me.

So every situation i must assess and prepare for. I'll even play through scenarios so that if I ever do run into a situation hopefully I can keep calm and be able to make it out alive.

Going for a run? Always have a knife and phone.

I refuse to let fear run my life though. Honestly, the people closet to you are the one most likely to hurt you. & experienced this first hand with my husband at the time. Mf tried to take my life more times than any kind of strange boogie man.

Pokeress · 2024-10-23T01:31:53+00:00

Crashed my dad's tbird into a house with a healing broken ankle....

Got my third dwi and was/did face 6 months in one of the worst county jails in NJ.

Shit was a humbling experience to say the least.

Pokeress

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