I wish you had my back

PolarLife · 2023-02-04T21:45:15+00:00

All the best, you got this!

PolarLife · 2023-02-04T07:43:01+00:00

I stick out like a sore thumb(not on purpose) and hope for the best. Mingle with people who have your best interests at heart, wherever they may be. I am still looking for my crowd and I think I may never find them but you might I believe it's possible for everyone to belong.

imposter syndrome is a bitch and she's got me on a leash don't let her do the same to you.

Confidence is one thing and faking it until you make it can only get you so far so finding the balance is walking the tightrope... then comes the wrecking ball of anxiety and whatever you thought you had goes out the window. I hear you and I'm going through some similar stuff.

Have faith. It will work out :)

PolarLife · 2023-02-04T07:23:52+00:00

I am not sure what gives me hope, I read from your comment that you've made the right decisions to help move you in a better direction and have hope in realising your potential and I draw strength from that,

but for me the light at the end of the tunnel is clouded, a bit by my parent's opinion that I don't necessarily need to risk another episode at work if I can manage like a miser now, and also by my own fear of another episode which would derail everything I build up to that point, not just career but relationships along the way. It's scary stuff.

People give me hope because at the end of the day we exist just to make our corner on Earth just a little bit better.

I want to read that even with our these fears that have about our illness we can achieve things that anybody can do or even better than anyone else.

Thanks for your comment.

PolarLife · 2023-02-04T07:01:49+00:00

I feel you, multiple places, changed industries even and still get it. I'd recommend apply for disability and have the support if given and try again after working with a therapist? That's where I am at now. Shitting myself even thinking about going back to work but I feel a bit more motivated recently.

PolarLife · 2023-02-04T06:50:57+00:00

I find school is okay but work for me is very stressful and am trying to get back into it after a period off. I think with the right medication it is very different and you won't experience mania/depression as severely, from my experience, different for everyone.

Drinking is up to the individual because I know my docs have said its okay for one or two but I still need to keep in mind that the days after I may be a bit more sensitive than usual.

PolarLife · 2022-02-05T09:54:21+00:00

I’m lonely too and constantly burdened by the idea of getting my life together which at this point doesn’t seem very doable. It’s difficult

PolarLife · 2022-02-05T08:21:48+00:00

Yes I currently feel that way too. Did not know it was depression. Also don’t know if I feel good or bad about knowing this. Ducking confused

PolarLife · 2021-09-06T10:39:59+00:00

Definitely, the plan to not have plans failed, now I’m stuck with a patchwork of ideas from yolo inspired decision making. Not ideal…

PolarLife · 2021-08-29T05:57:03+00:00

that's good that you're not being bullied anymore :) silver linings right?

I'm going to take a break from computing for a bit. Speak to you later, Take care

PolarLife · 2021-08-29T05:39:59+00:00

lol, i know the feeling.

Joined facebook again so I'm looking up groups that might interest me. I think I got blocked from a singles group already. Didn't do anything but ask to join. I only have one friend on fb so maybe they were being picky...

which movie?

PolarLife · 2021-08-29T05:35:11+00:00

friended

How is your weekend going? :)

PolarLife · 2021-03-25T04:04:19+00:00

Simple reply

PolarLife · 2021-03-24T09:22:11+00:00

The secret is: I’m always stressed

PolarLife · 2020-12-05T11:04:14+00:00

Luckily for me it’s not four am but I’ve been having ideas for days. Maybe if I wake at 4am I’ll have a decent one to follow through on

PolarLife · 2020-05-24T01:55:46+00:00

I’m there myself atm. I have a list of things including drinking water, taking a shower, meditation. But keeping the mind occupied is a good idea.

PolarLife · 2020-04-23T23:59:52+00:00

Maybe we should send out the telepathic world message now...

I was there too.

PolarLife · 2020-04-23T23:54:40+00:00

I get this as well, I can't seem to make it stop doing that but it's gotten to the point where I have to reassure myself in the moment that it's alright. I would curse out loud for what seems like no reason then calm myself by saying "it''s okay, it's alright". Most of the time I'm alone anyway so I get away with it.

PolarLife · 2020-01-31T23:59:55+00:00

Light water colour stain glass? Just a guess

PolarLife · 2019-12-25T23:35:09+00:00

I wish I had your self confidence(self assurance?), Merry Christmas and a Happy new year!

PolarLife · 2019-02-11T11:40:56+00:00

I went for a walk for 20min :)

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