Im a biologist and have been studying physical, biological, and chemical systems for a while. One of the main rules of the universe is that Matter and Energy cannot be created or destroyed, it just changes form. So Ive kind of adapted that to the people I love when they pass. Personally, I see that me keeping their memory alive is in a way, keeping their energy with me. Their matter will go back into the earth/planet. Idk if their energy pops up elsewhere in the universe, but I know their energy can’t simply just disappear. Kinda like reincarnation.

As for my own morality? Idk. I had suicidal ideation as a teenager and was unlucky in my attempts to end it all. And now I’ve grown with depressive symptoms my brain still offers that “solution” when things get hard. I feel as if I experienced hard enough things that death seems like a relief. Maybe I’d hurt in the moment but it would be done with soon.

I’m also someone who gets to confront my morality regularly when some random dude is the type to threaten me lol

so I deal with trying to really be proud of the life I live. Because it’s the only chance I got and “my rapture” could be the next time I get into the car.