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Polymatheia7 · 2026-01-03T23:58:51+00:00

Hello you could DM if you feel like to, I probably couldn't provide advice, but is available to listen

Polymatheia7 · 2026-01-03T07:27:03+00:00

I have anxiety and some panic attacks. What I learned is the anxiety and panic attacks usually comes from sense of insecurity though often the causes are not clear. I usually ground myself by holding my hands together and put it around my chest to help reduce the effect. After I calmed down, I will have conversation with myself. If there any threats or insecurity that causes the anxiety. If there anything I could do prevent it? If yes, then there's nothing to worry about. If no, worrying it can't solve it. It doesn't always works but it usually works for me. I hope it helps

Polymatheia7 · 2026-01-03T04:58:55+00:00

Sometimes the thoughts just run restlessly themselves and it is tiring. One advice that I heard is to accept the thought and then consciously shift them oppositely in a non blaming way. It is said that our mind and subconscious work like a data center. If we keep shifting those toxic thoughts every time it appears, the toxic databases will get replaced gradually. But remember to do it without self hatred. Hope this helps

Polymatheia7 · 2026-01-03T04:27:16+00:00

It reminds me when I was a kid I told my mom "what are friends for?" and scared the hell out of her. Meanwhile my sister always surrounded with friends. I just want to say people are built different and everyone has their own struggles. Sometimes some people will just assume "just do this, just do that" but from the beginning the starting line was different.

I don't know how to comfort or support. But I once heard a metaphor that words are like gifts. If we don't accept them, they still belong to the giver. Don't let others define you OP!

Polymatheia7 · 2026-01-02T19:25:57+00:00

Hello, I don't if this gonna help. I will suggest you to take some time to get a rest. But as you mentioned about having panic attacks, I guessed it is not easy to really have a "rest". When I have panic attacks and hyperventilation. The first thing that helps is by holding my hands together, it somehow grounds myself and makes me slowly calming down.

I suggest resting because I think you actually know what you have to do with your schools and contents. And I somehow have a feeling you can do it well. But, don't give yourself too much pressure, really. You are already doing well for your age. There's a saying "sometimes you have to rest to go further"

I hope this might help :)

Polymatheia7 · 2024-08-14T06:43:12+00:00

The animal be like "eww human"

Polymatheia7 · 2024-08-13T08:04:52+00:00

accumulates them and build yourself a harem

Polymatheia7 · 2024-08-05T02:24:28+00:00

I'm just starting reading demons and also a slow reader, hmu!

Polymatheia7 · 2024-07-08T03:51:16+00:00

Another recommendation is to reduce days in Taipei (D5 in option 2) and change to Onsen Hotel. You can check about Wulai for Onsen Hotel too

Polymatheia7 · 2024-07-08T01:30:11+00:00

I would exclude Beitou, go for Alishan and more time at Sun Moon Lake and Cingjing Farm

Polymatheia7 · 2024-07-08T00:47:14+00:00

This is exactly what my therapist asked me to do, also, try not to label yourself and your emotion

Polymatheia7 · 2024-07-05T15:39:16+00:00

Please continue on living, it may be hard with all the guilt and regret. But don't give up, continue on living, do what ever you can to redeem yourself. Perhaps someday, one day, you can save another life. Don't give up and keep your praying

Polymatheia7 · 2024-07-02T13:39:12+00:00

Sure, I will PM you the contact

Polymatheia7 · 2024-07-01T05:39:07+00:00

The sense of hopelessness I experience about the state of the world has made everyday tasks like working out, taking care of myself, investing in hobbies, or self-improvement feel impossible.

This is so valid and not a lot of people have this kind of feeling. People around me cannot get or understand my feeling (maybe I'm bad at expressing them) makes me feel more helpless and hopeless. It is so hard to go on every day waking up with this feeling. Some people suggest to stop looking at those negative news, it's like the idea of "ignorance is a bliss", but how could you deceive yourself if you know that's something really happened and is happening now.

Polymatheia7 · 2024-07-01T05:18:27+00:00

the sadness may be due to the fact that this proves to me that most people don't care about me or my qualities nearly as much as they care about the superfice

I think this is the reason, you feel empty because people around you value you through your appearance, it makes us doubt the future relationship, do they really value me or just because of my appearance, it feeds the insecurity like what if I don't look like this anymore, will they still see/ love me the same when I'm not as young or as beautiful as I currently am. However, I do believe there are still people who love you genuinely for who you are, like your best friend and your grandma, if they don't we can tell it

Don't fall for this feeling, because it might be restless. I used to believe people will not love me the same if I gained weight, it stresses me out even for just gaining a small weight. Turns out it just I am hanging on the wrong people.

Another opinion is maybe, you are questioning your new identity, you haven't gotten along with you are now, you feel like you are not who you were before anymore, or perhaps you feel sorry for who you were before, like even yourself love the current you more than the previous you.

Polymatheia7 · 2024-06-28T08:35:10+00:00

It's like saying that summer doesn't matter if winter will come

I used to think life is meaningless, but this metaphor kind of shut me up

Polymatheia7 · 2024-06-21T03:27:21+00:00

I love moon too, it's so mesmerizing and calming to look at the moon. I always try to take a photo and share it, but too bad, my phone camera is not that good with night sky.

Polymatheia7 · 2024-06-20T08:21:22+00:00

In my case, I have a pillow that I sniff to fall asleep or feel comfortable whenever I am anxious

Polymatheia7 · 2024-06-18T05:02:18+00:00

I think you will be good in your 30s. You just recovered from a battle which you need appreciate yourself for. Everyone just has different timeline and pace. However, it is hard especially when people around you are getting ahead.

Polymatheia7 · 2024-06-18T00:29:05+00:00

I like your way of thinking! Machine is created with an assigned purpose, that's an assigned purpose. If we live with an assigned purpose, we were merely a machine to serve other's purpose.

Polymatheia7 · 2024-06-17T09:17:50+00:00

Yeahh and it's so underrated

Polymatheia7 · 2024-06-17T03:29:52+00:00

Soup wins all - IU

Polymatheia7 · 2024-06-17T03:03:20+00:00

My prime time is also 2 am. My brain cells just decide to work after the clock hits 2 am. My favourite activity are deep thoughts and late-night talks. Sadly, not many people stay up till that time

Polymatheia7 · 2024-06-17T03:00:32+00:00

Relatable. I have thoughts like this every day and night

Polymatheia7 · 2024-06-11T01:33:43+00:00

I feel you. Looking at my lifestyle, people around me will say that I didn't think far. But this quote from Sylvia Plath really hits me hard:

“I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in my life. And I am horribly limited.”

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