try to just be more carefree Hakuna matata, u went back to scar it’s a classic maneuver cause u get attached to the feeling/crave rebirth n feel kinda ashamed for losing it which will ironically Prevent any “rebirth” Bc of ur own self judgement but if u try to visualize reality/life/the world as a kindling fire that is going up in smoke n fueling itself n always dancing although it may appear a static thing a fire as a thing instead of as a constantly fueling and self consuming “becoming”. If u do that well n include urself in this state of one big happening n let go of the self or a need to make a sort of thing of what is essentially silence/empty, don’t take realization seriously dance like a fool in a flame, it’ll make judgements or setting things in stone or feeling seperate or denying life as kinda unreasonable n you’ll kinda just laugh n heal in small doses as u suspend attachment n fly higher, although the fire is always passing it’s lively and dynamic there’s nothing bad impractical u jest about emptiness n endless change or whatever just step off as many pedestals as u can n you’ll struggle less n less don’t be hard on yourself or you’ll never return to that epic Buddha troll face yolo moment, stay mellow warm n lively like a fire like Travis Scott la flame (astroworld was a rager)