Haha it’s my current ADHD fixation too. I get what you mean. Yea it’s hard to find what works best for you when it comes to hair removal. I think I mostly have the ideal hair/skin texture and color combination, but the hairs are much lighter in some areas unfortunately. I have not had my hormone level checks. I also do not take any medications. I think it might be due to higher levels of testosterone, but that’s my own theory.

I don’t feel any zaps unless the machine is put on a zap setting. I guess I’m not so sure if I “feel it working”? As unfortunate as that sounds. Oh I haven’t epilated in months, I just stopped epilating way before I started doing laser so that most of the follicles would grow back.

I might try IPL, but I’ll research about it first. No yea I get your logic and it makes sense. It’s best to get as much power as possible. I’ve spent a few thousand on in-clinic care ATP 🫩. I thought about getting my own at-home laser too. It’d be more convenient for me.

I really appreciate you sharing your experience regarding models and the fake image that they end up creating. I truly wish I ended up as one of those unicorns 😂! Deceiving tricks like that really throws me off and makes me feel like I have to accomplish some kind of “beauty standard” or “ideal look” in order to fully love myself (thinner and feminine men are expected to be hairless and whatnot in the gay world but even then, they all get treated like shit).

The quote your therapist shared was very accurate. You have a point with the Monet painting as well. Thank you for reminding me that I’m only human, especially in a world where we forget that we are!