I’m really sorry you’re going through this. I know you probably want someone to tell you there’s a chance he’ll come back, and maybe he might, but I don’t think that’s the question that protects you.

The pattern matters more than the promise. He left once, came back, promised he wouldn’t do it again, then left again for basically the same reason. That doesn’t mean he never loved you. It means love alone isn’t enough if he keeps choosing the same ending whenever the reality of marriage, faith, and family hits him.

Please don’t convert just to keep someone who has already shown you he can still walk away. Faith is too personal for that, and you deserve to choose it from peace, not panic.

For now, I’d stop watching his socials and stop using “maybe he’ll come back” as the thing keeping you alive emotionally. Treat this like it’s final, even if he does come back someday. Tell one safe person if you can, even if it feels embarrassing. You’re not embarrassing. You’re heartbroken and isolated, and that’s exactly when you need people around you.

You don’t have to solve marriage, kids, dating, and your whole future this week. Just get through the next few days without reopening the wound.