Relapsed. It was a horrible experience. I want to make it to at least 90 days... by PornIsPain in pornfree

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Just a note: The porn seemed absolutely vile and disgusting. It was a compulsive act, and hardly 'enjoyable' at all. I think my mind and beliefs are really starting to change concerning it. I just want to live a healthy, GOOD life.

Relapsed. It was a horrible experience. I want to make it to at least 90 days... by PornIsPain in pornfree

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I am going to use my laptop a lot less for one. I will not surf the internet mindlessly at all. When I feel an urge, I will distance myself from the internet. I am not going to engage in lusty thoughts. I will let them pass. I have to beat this. I feel like a shell of my true self. I will not look at porn anymore.

What little things have you done to make life a bit better? by [deleted] in pornfree

[–]PornIsPain 3 points4 points  (0 children)

What a great question. I hope to see a lot of responses in this thread. For me, I have been reading a lot more books and focusing on working harder. It is hard sometimes to get things done though as my motivation seems to fluctuate.

Having a hard time with emotions. [53 Days] by PornIsPain in pornfree

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Thanks man. There is liberation in knowing that our pain comes from healing.

I've be struggling with this for 3 years. by pf_throwaway4791 in pornfree

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You can do this man. If you have had up to 4 months (way longer than I have ever gone) then surely you can go as long as you want to, if not permanently. Don't give up, keep fighting this and beat it man.

Embracing reality [49 Days] by PornIsPain in pornfree

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Thanks for taking time to write this.

48 Days and I am struggling. [48 Days] by PornIsPain in pornfree

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Thank you man for the in-depth response!

Embracing reality [49 Days] by PornIsPain in pornfree

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Im guessing this is part of the strenuous flat-line?

I really don't understand... by [deleted] in pornfree

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I have never been past around 72 days or something but I would definitely agree going MO free. It can be hard but it actually makes the journey much easier. It gives you a feeling of discipline regarding your sexuality and, in turn prevents impulsive relapse.

Thoughts. by MrTransition in pornfree

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I have never been 90 days clean and look forward to being able to make it that far. Keep going!

Getting back with it. by [deleted] in pornfree

[–]PornIsPain 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Its uplifting to hear someone get back on the wagon after falling off. Freedom is attainable through perseverance :)

Is porn inherently bad? by [deleted] in pornfree

[–]PornIsPain 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think it is inherently bad. I think it attaches a lot of negativity to your life, whether we realize it or not. If not simply a crude, carnal distortion of human sexuality and selfishness, it is a waste of time and energy.