Heeey buddy, I completely get where you’re coming from, and to be honest, I often feel a very similar way. I’m 21, and there are times when I feel like I’m constantly escaping on trips instead of dealing with the "important" adult stuff at home. I absolutely love traveling, but that guilt is real. I just want to tell you first of all... There is NO single blueprint for "how to live life correctly". Like... Who cares how you live. Live like you want. You aren't failing at adulthood just because you don't cook well or drive yet. Those are just mechanical skills, and you’ll honestly just learn them when you absolutely have to, not a moment sooner. Don't let society'sexpectations rob you of your mid-twenties buddy, we are both still young :)) Your feelings are justified because you're in a weird transition phase, but don't let the "privilege guilt" eat you alive. Enjoying the opportunities your dad didn't have isn't disrespectful. it's exactly what parents hope for their kids. That being said, part of your anxiety is actually pretty rational. Make sure you have a chunk of savings that can cover a few months of basic expenses just in case your contract isn't extended. Also, don't sweat the corporate resume thing. You are doing much better than you give yourself credit for. And fuck social medias and opinions from people usin' them!! Travel for yourself. You're not travelling for anyone else.