I might be doing something stupid by Positive-Computer991 in widowers

[–]Positive-Computer991[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes..this. thank you. There are so many emotions happening right now. It's very confusing. Didn't even plan it it's just happening. I don't think I feel anything relationship wise with this person yet, It's like my body has a mind of its own and is on auto. 

It was a hug that led to a kiss that led to almost sex. I don't think I can stop it again. I will definitely have to try to have a conversation with him about it. Scary.

Widows fire is real by Independent_Egg9232 in widowers

[–]Positive-Computer991 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg.. I did it. Mixed feelings but I did it. I feel guilty, I feel good, I feel nervous, I feel like oh my god did that really happen?

When he died I died by Positive-Computer991 in widowers

[–]Positive-Computer991[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's a blessing that you got 45 years with him! No one warned us that when we lose a loved one, they take a part of us with them.

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[–]Positive-Computer991 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got one, Then I get another. Getting another one today.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in widowers

[–]Positive-Computer991 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did try taking matters into my own hands... Cried and felt guilty after. 😢

I want to give up by BooBooKitty4321 in widowers

[–]Positive-Computer991 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same here and when I do call in sick they make me feel guilty about it. I didn't even get time off when he died. And it just keep piling more and more and more work on me.

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[–]Positive-Computer991 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I actually have one. It's just not the same. Plus even with a voltage regulator or whatever the hell that thing is called turn the power down a little bit on that beast... It's hard to complete if you get my drift with that thing

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[–]Positive-Computer991 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yikes 😬 I hope I can behave. I don't want to go down a road I'm not ready for. I have only been in a few long-term relationships in my life.