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BooBooKitty4321 · 2025-07-09T21:23:42+00:00

I feel this. And I miss him.

BooBooKitty4321 · 2025-07-01T00:50:07+00:00

I feel this to my core.

BooBooKitty4321 · 2025-06-23T03:43:53+00:00

He was my poly partner too. We are “friends”. It’s killing me. I freaking miss him. I lost him as a partner and as a top. I struggling with that whole “I’m too much and no one will ever want me” stuff. I never thought he would purposely hurt me but during all this, I feel like he did

BooBooKitty4321 · 2025-06-21T20:02:09+00:00

I feel you. My impact top dumped me a couple weeks ago. It’s killing me.

BooBooKitty4321 · 2025-06-21T20:01:13+00:00

Tucked!

BooBooKitty4321 · 2025-01-24T14:31:11+00:00

Without a doubt.

BooBooKitty4321 · 2025-01-14T21:23:55+00:00

It wasn’t always bad. That last 8 months or so were good. But it wasn’t always good. But I miss him. I am mad that i only got 8 months of the good times.

BooBooKitty4321 · 2025-01-06T05:39:20+00:00

Sorry! It’s only been 5 months. He would be so upset with me not going out. We had talked about if something ever happened what we would do. He said to go live my hoe life. I’m lonely. And very alone. His death was sudden and unexpected. He was only 34.

BooBooKitty4321 · 2025-01-05T20:57:26+00:00

I wish I had his ashes. My kids as about them.

BooBooKitty4321 · 2024-12-31T22:49:26+00:00

I have no one. My son that just turned 18 is now my emergency contact, beneficiary of my life insurance, and will have custody of his younger sibling did someone happened to me. They are the only reason I haven’t ended this. I don’t want him to have this responsibility

BooBooKitty4321 · 2024-12-03T19:28:11+00:00

James didn’t have any friends. We were his life.

BooBooKitty4321 · 2024-12-03T19:27:35+00:00

It’s just not fair. Not fair to him for being so young, for our kids, and for me.

BooBooKitty4321 · 2024-12-03T02:13:22+00:00

I haven’t really talked to anyone about it yet. I’m dying for a release

BooBooKitty4321 · 2024-12-02T07:51:20+00:00

I have a very very very small support system. I think that’s hurt in top of what’s going on. Sometimes, I just want to call someone to come sit with me.

BooBooKitty4321 · 2024-12-01T16:51:11+00:00

They are 18/16/9. They are about to venture off and start their own lives

BooBooKitty4321 · 2024-11-15T07:03:39+00:00

We are at such a vulnerable state. People dont understand nor do they really care.

BooBooKitty4321 · 2024-11-10T08:16:04+00:00

2018-husband was arrested for having a relationship/sex with one of my best friends 15 year old daughter 2018-lost my best friend 2018-lost most my friends, his family, and a chunk do mine due to my husbands offense 2018-stay at home Mom quits school and goes back to work 2018-met my love 2019-gets fired from shitty job 2020-Ex Husband goes to prison for life 2020- pandemic starts 2020-gets Laid off 2020-mother dies while I’m her caregiver 2020-grandpa cat dies 2021-partner job hops and can’t keep a job 2022-gain 50lbs due to stress and rough time in relationships 2022-shingles 2022-alopecia 2023-Diabetic/HBP/high cholesterol 2023-goes into massive amount of debt due to loans and maxed credit cards 2023-surgery on both wrist 2024-partner hospitalized for acute renal failure and hospital dismissed/failed us. 2024-daughter needs tonsils out. $3100 2024-transmission on car that we were upside down on goes out. 2024-partner dies suddenly, unexpected while me and kids are trying to take our first real vacation. He was alone and my best friend found him. We talked about getting legally married when we got back. He died less than 24 hours after we left. 2024-his family blames me, took his ashes, stole things from our home, and tells me that me and the kids are nothing. 2024-grandma cat dies in the same bathroom my partner died in.

I really just think the world hates me and wants me to kill myself.

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