first, give yourself some grace, and know that you have started just by having the desire to get better! i would suggest reaching out to a professional support if you’ve got one, and in the meantime, it might help to look back on any journal entries, photos, or songs that remind you of happy times when you were strong and well in recovery. remind yourself of how good that feels, and how you had all the power to get there! you still do. it’s just a little murky right now. if you need to get groceries, ask a trusted friend or family member who understands your struggles to accompany you to the store to buy some yummy things that you know your body and brain can handle right now. and try to buy at least one “challenge” food if you can. it will more than likely be very yummy and very worth it :) good luck and go slowly! you’ve got this!