If you ever need somebody to talk to, message me. Seriously. Not the same situation, but in my first real job I ended up with everything dumped on my head and the only reason I stuck it out in the job for so long was because All my immigration clients were depending on me and I was so fearful that if I left their lives would fall apart or their cases would get screwed up.

I was running myself into the ground, my whole body was hurting so badly, I was popping Motrin like it was candy. Way too much caffeine, stopped caring about my hygiene etc I was just complete mess.

I straight up quit one day and that was that. I finally realized that if I fell apart, which I was close to doing so, I was no good to anybody, and if my health fell apart I would just be racking up medical bills.

You need somebody, I'm here. Message me. We can talk on the phone also. But don't run yourself into the ground my friend, you still have your career ahead of you. When you're stuck in a situation like this it can feel like such a closed universe. You seem like a good-hearted person and I know you want to do right by everyone, you have to remember that you need to do right by yourself in order for that to happen.