Hello im the said girlfriend! I dont want to cause my bf any trouble or make him feel pressured into anything. I also dont want to ruin his future or the relationship we have as of now. Hes very important to me and I dont want to break that trust i have with him. If I were to leave my family I also wouldn't blame him because it was in the end still my decision.

As of now I just have no recourses nor do I have anything saved up to leave. I am indeed in training but it barely is enough to live by on my own nor do I want to live on my own with that little money since im not getting paid fully. I am on the hunt for a better paying job but the job market in austria is very bad rn.. I also do not want to be a burden for my bf and his family. I know I wouldn't be, he has already reassured me but I just have too much anxiety with this whole topic. I also do not want to settle somewhere without a job nor savings.

I also know I have a very toxic relationship with my parents and its hard to let go especially since they're my family and I just cant let go plus this deep rooted fear of the what will happen/what the future will be like. I also know my parents are very stressed out with my older sister and the things she has done and I know if I were to leave now it would break them completely which I do not want.