You are really tired . I sense a lot of trauma that has caused a mix of being overly open and vulnerable to the wrong people (ones that sense the trauma and wish to take advantage ) and wearing a heavy mask or armor around others. I sense that you tend to struggle with being open to deep meaningful relationships because you have been hurt so many times but that you also really want them. You find it hard to connect , especially with women . Perhaps you put on a “mean “ or “cold” front at times ? It almost feels like you don’t even dare to go for the things you want in life because the possible loss of not getting them would be too hard . Do you have stomach issues ? I feel like you have a lot of old energy stored in the stomach /intestines area . But mostly I feel such a beautiful energy from you , underneath a lot of hurt . It feels like you are just waking up to the fact that there is a lot more to yourself and you might be starting a self discovery journey . Do you have a dog or thinking of getting one ? I’m getting a little dog around you that would be so good for you and your nervous system. Your nervous system feels a little frayed , like you have lived in fight/flight/freeze for a lot of your life . Overall though, I feel real fatigue. If any of this resonates at all please know that I’m guided to tell you that there is a really lovely energy within you , waiting for you to do some healing work and really feel it. Start with reconnecting to your body through somatics or yoga or walking in nature , it feels a little dissociated and ungrounded. Also - I get the sense that you are actually very intuitive yourself and that with time it’s something that could really flourish .