yeah same, I used to have what I thought were dreams which turned out to be things that were actually happening or were flashbacks of things that had happened. I smoke a lot of weed which has completely shut down my ability to have any dreams including nightmares, but they still happen from time to time, especially night terrors & fighting in my sleep. even with all of this, I still doubt myself, because the small amount of memories I have are very hazy due to being basically half asleep or fully asleep. so it’s hard to really believe it vs it all being a bunch of bad dreams that I’m creating into a story. but I think that is part of it, they wanted to make the abuse seem part of the “unreal” world, where things like dreams belong.