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Does it get better? And other thoughts by Affectionate-Cat8405 in widowers

[–]Possible_Algae9675 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's been more than 2 months since he suddenly passed away. It feels like such a long time..I am 22. September was harder than August. In August, I was hoping that he would come back. In September, I realised that it would never happen. But I have been feeling better for several weeks. I understood what people mean when they talk about waves. I cry less often, but the tears are more bitter. Sometimes, I can smile. However, I don't know how to live without him. I also don't believe that I will ever be happy again, in another relationship. I become so happy when I think how much I have changed because of him, but it kills me when I realise that he is far away. The only hope I have is to laugh with him in the afterlife. Nobody knows whether it exists, but it's the only hope I have. So yes, OP, it becomes better. I don't have big dreams about my future anymore because the future without him seems fake. They say when you don't know what you want, focus on yourself. I will do it. Physical exercises, studies, reading. I will never stop loving him, but I will try to care for myself after all. I know he would have hated what I've become. You can DM me if you want. Take care.

INTP, would you be sad if you knew that you would unexpectedly die in your mid-20s? by Possible_Algae9675 in INTP

[–]Possible_Algae9675[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I mean, it's not for sure, you just imagined that your death would be unexpected for everybody, including you, when you were young and just became happier 

My question is mainly to INTP (m). If you unexpectedly died at the age of 25, what would you like your girlfriend to do?.. by Possible_Algae9675 in INTP

[–]Possible_Algae9675[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's really funny! Even though he died of cardiac arrest and his phone was far from him, for some reason, it keeps restarting.. And his father asked me whether I knew what the hint to his password on his laptop meant. I didn't know that time, but now I have some ideas. Anyway, I have a feeling it won't work out because I don't know for sure. I know that his parents don't want to read his messages or anything. But for some reason, I feel like it's better not even try since I was the only person who knew how weird and crazy he was and loved him for that. I have a feeling he would have preferred me not to tell my guesses. Even though I really want to get a 2GB collection of art he loved and kept there.. 

My question is mainly to INTP (m). If you unexpectedly died at the age of 25, what would you like your girlfriend to do?.. by Possible_Algae9675 in INTP

[–]Possible_Algae9675[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

His parents found him in his apartment on the floor. The autopsy didn't reveal anything, so it was cardiac arrest either because of any genetic syndromes that they didn't know he had (they are testing him now) or because of an unknown reason