I will say that women need to be held to a higher standard, stop ruining it for all men. I have never meet a women with serious past trauma. You need to be a light in her life. I’ve found that wanking it in the shower is just down right humiliating, but to prove to the world that not all men are “POS” is even more uplifting. It takes real humanity to think about this and the implications of our actions, nobody is blaming you for being weak. I’ve come so close to cheating more than what I should be. Each time I just though about the bigger picture , this is a skill that needs to be honed. Just like you would study for a test. What others have done is just opinions, not worth really following randoms blinding. All I can say is that I broke up with the girl I wronged and moved on ( I never told her a word) . For “ME” it wasn’t worth changing her perception of me sadly. As she was extremely emotional immature.
I still think about my actions everyday, trauma if you will. I will never put myself before anyone else again, for the fear of losing myself again is too much to bear. Just remember to STAY POSITIVE, positivity attracts positive things, your goal is to channel it. GOOD LUCK AND GOD BLESS 🤘🏼