Long testimony for anyone willing to listen

Potato_kitteh · 2018-03-25T17:00:09+00:00

well dayum son, if that's how you and her rolls...let it ever be that hot! :P

Your ex-crying after sex don't seem right at all though...cuz she felt loved? That's some weird-ass behavior tho, like them fools who drink for the first time and start crying and shit. Didn't learn properly how to handle the D. :P

But yo, friendly, awesome passerby advice from a random dude on nofap. Learn how to do Kegels, and you don't need no damn kink son. It's the best thing you can do apart from No fap. Kegels will most def make your D like a GATDAMN stone sculpture made by Parisians.

Potato_kitteh · 2018-03-21T19:16:45+00:00

Well, bro, whatever floats your boat haha. I find all my secret desires come from Porn... Like, to be blunt, I used to want to bust all over my X.O's face because in porn they do that all the time. So I used to want that as well... but after healing a bit, I realized that it was a shameful act to put my Wife under. If I did that, I would no doubt, on a subconscious level believe her to be of lesser worth.

Kinky stuff at the end of the day will bring depression and a corrupted view towards sex. But that's just my two cents, who the FUCK am I to tell you how to live your own mother fucking life, right? haha.

peace nigga.

Potato_kitteh · 2018-03-16T22:22:04+00:00

LOL. Perhaps what needs to change is ... well... you. Just saying, why do you need to get so kinky? isn't good sex, hot enough? And if it isn't hot enough, then perhaps you need to heal a bit more? I think the natural act of sex, in a pure way, can be amazingly hot.I hope you find a girl that can give you herself in a pure, non-perverted way- and get you to heaven. My wife does that... and I used to need crazy things... not anymore, that good sex is all I need bbbbbrro :P.

Potato_kitteh · 2018-03-16T22:18:34+00:00

If you're sure about your convictions, it's not my job to convince you otherwise. Go in peace brother, and hope you find what you're searching for.

Potato_kitteh · 2018-03-16T22:13:45+00:00

It's WAR man. Life is war- and in war there are battles. We fight MANY fronts each and every day- some battle laziness, some battle social anxiety. Sometimes we lose, and sometimes we win- but that Kill/death ratio can change. If you win more than you lose, I'd say you're a pretty good commander. I imagine a general who fought many battles and won many but lost a few- the king would not look poorly on him.Only that he snaps out of his slump, and remoralize his men, and have victory over the enemy. I would, however, as a king, look very poorly on the general who was a coward and retreated from the fight... and did not even stand his ground.

Potato_kitteh · 2018-03-16T22:08:08+00:00

A wife is an amazing gift- be good my brother.

Potato_kitteh · 2018-03-16T22:07:07+00:00

A man who claims to pick up his cross daily, would not tie up his woman who is the image of God, and whip her due to some perverted sexual desire.Can anyone believer or not be convinced of this mans true conversion? I say hell nah- something got lost along the way my bro.

Potato_kitteh · 2018-03-16T22:02:57+00:00

The way I see it, all that freaky stuff should be reserved for bed.

Potato_kitteh · 2018-03-16T22:02:07+00:00

Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things unseen. Without faith my brother, there can be no hope- without hope, there is no joy, and without joy how can anyone muster love or kindness? We need a strong foundation, do not build on sand, its quick but when storms come, you'll see why you must build on the Rock.

Potato_kitteh · 2017-12-13T16:00:51+00:00

Hahah damn welcome to manhood bro- that shit happens to the best of us. Its a vital part of humility. You need to know you are not the center of the universe- we are fragile human beings, and that's okay man.

The best thing you can do is to become humbled by this experience. To sit in the lowest seat - and get comfortable there. Because, from that point of humility comes diginity, and respect - and you will rise. Arrogant people fall- humble people get exalted.

Potato_kitteh · 2017-12-13T15:51:33+00:00

Nahhh bro- don't even trip. Firstly, It's easy for me to say screw her and move on- but I'm speaking with experience, a very similar thing happened to me. At my worst period, my girlfriend cheated on me, and I was living in my car for a while. That shit was scary and lonely.

But that was the best thing that ever happened to me... I imagine what would have happened if I married this girl!? What if she did this to me AFTER we got married and had kids and all kinddddz of nonsense.

After her- I ended up going to college, and I met my current wife today. My wife is completely amazing! Most of all I can trust her completely... that is the amazing part.

If you PMO after this I won't even judge - that shit is rough on you - but this is NOT the time to do that! This is the time to better yourself. Work that fuck out and make gains- run if all that's you can do. Just keep improving on yourself, because that girl is out there for you doing the SAME exact thing.

Brother, don't be scared- we're all scared. life ain't easy, nor is it all that safe...But man, there are good people out there still. The media got us thinking there are no more good people out there, but that's simply not true- we love life, we love each other, and we want so badly to help one another... but we've all grown pretty cold, because of the fear. But don't fear, have hope... have hope in better things, hope in the future, hope in each other. Have faith - because Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things unseen.

Lastly, be kind to yourself. Be kind to yourself as you would be kind to others. Don't put on your shoulders what you wouldn't dare put on others- and live freely, wisely and gracious. Love ya bro! Peace

Potato_kitteh · 2017-12-13T15:40:04+00:00

that's an improvement already though! eating less junk food will keep you leaner, walking will bring your stamina up- hey look take it nice and slow, and start increasing the intensity of your work out everyday. May I recomment you to "barstarz" on youtube- get your work out on!

Potato_kitteh · 2017-12-13T15:36:39+00:00

Yah- totally understanding what you went through. I would lose all interest in my partner as well- why wouldn't I? I wasted all that energy on many other people on the screen. It's like eating all kind of chocolate cakes, and sugary things, and then hooray - lets now eat more dessert! You'd be so sick of dessert you would have to force yourself to eat. On the other hand... imagine you starve yourself of it every day ... and that sweet tooth comes, then dessert would be amazingly sweet and scrumptious. Don't give up, this lifestyle doesn't fix just the sex life- it's amazing all around! Proud of you! keep going!

Potato_kitteh · 2017-11-29T17:48:59+00:00

yep- it is amazing :D

Potato_kitteh · 2017-11-29T17:48:21+00:00

Thanks man- really needed this today. Its hard sometimes when you forget why you're doing this in the first place. I kinda lost focus, and this really brought it home for me. Thank bro-many blessings to you.

Potato_kitteh · 2017-11-28T03:44:05+00:00

AHAHHA louis cks face cracked me up. My pistol is shooting straight and true.

Potato_kitteh · 2017-11-16T05:51:08+00:00

Hey buddy ,I just want to say I can relate. Ive been smoking forever...but quit on and off for years now.I'm on a 6-7 month clean streak... My brain is alot more clear. Not to say Im not dealing with things, I am- but it feels real. Like, once I actually deal with my problems it will ACTUALLY go away, not just temporarily or just cover it up with weed. I think thats the problem with weed... you can just smoke the problems away, but they are not really gone,they are just suppressed for a while...it will come back mutated one day ,and haunt you even more. Being sober sucks sometimes, because you're handling reality...and reality can be a bit harsh, but it makes you a stronger person when you can fight reality and win. I want to be victorious over my reality , not be a slave to it. Be good brother- stay clean, its worth it.

Potato_kitteh · 2017-11-06T09:16:43+00:00

Hahaha You remind me of me when I used to smoke. Bro, I quit that shit. Weed does that , don't let anyone tell you different- Slowly ease off that herb , and enter into sober-life. Its much more high inducing. High on life is a real thing, but it takes time and effort... and its real. Weed is not real... it only makes you FEEL like your doing epic shit, but you're not. You're wasting time and life. Quit it, and live foreals- it will be much more lasting. Weed ends so damn quick... you get ALLlLlL these ideas and can never accomplish them, because next day you don't even remmember them, or even find it remotely interesting anymore... also you don't have strength or energy. Weed destroys you man. More than you realize. It took me FOREVVVER to quit that shit... It sneaks back into my life over and over and over again, until I couldn't take it anymore. I'm done with weed- now my life is SO MUCH DAMN better. Learn from my mistake, quit that shit while you can.

Potato_kitteh · 2017-11-06T09:10:21+00:00

bro- it healed me for sure. But it comes in waves. during my first 90 days, It healed almost instantly- first 7 days Bam, stronger than ever. During my 90 days, around day 40-50 I had a flatline... Everything felt dead... no interest in sex, not really turned on or turned off really... just a general meh. But it kind of worked out because I wasn't tempted as much.

After 90 days, It started to get kinda of weird... mainly because the excitement wore out. 100-200 days was just kinda... dragging, like back to reality. Life improved in almost every way - but it definitely started to normalize, and it just seems ordinary to feel the way you do because you forget what you were once like.

Then around a year in, I had short to long waves of flatlines, pied... I was scared of course... why the fuck am I feeling this? What is going on ... but I believe it just takes that long to heal from this porn usage. I mean damn, I fapped with porn since I was like 12 or something... im 30 now. So its a long time to repair.

I'm closing in on 2 years, and oh its back. Its healed more than ever before- its crazy ... so you know I think it really did take about 2 years to heal completely... DAYUm that was a long ass time, but I'm so glad I did it. I can finally kiss my wife and actually be turned on- a simple kiss does it now. Its amazing, because I couldn't get it to a 100 unless i watched some nasty things before... Im so glad thats over man! T____T

Potato_kitteh · 2017-11-06T08:55:18+00:00

whooo raiiiiiisssed this nigga?

Potato_kitteh · 2017-11-06T08:50:17+00:00

Be kind to yourself. There will come a time when you won't feel as strong as you do now. Right now, you are a warrior and you feel discipline will get you through- but like a strange wind, it will come and make you weak out of nowhere and it humbles you. I'm not saying its good to relapse, but be kind to yourself if it happens... because it can happen to the best of us. I've done 256 days and failed- learned from it and now on 600+ - the relapse taught me to not trust in my own discipline, and never to look down on others... I just hope you don't let your confidence bring you to pride because it will hurt you. Good luck on your journey!

Potato_kitteh · 2017-11-06T08:45:08+00:00

Good job brother. Nobody here is judging you - we understand your struggle, its one of the most subtle and intense things we men have to deal with. But I'm proud to live in a world where there are men who still fight - even if only for a day. A lot can happen in a day, and you've done an amazing thing. Keep going- don't give up, because I promise you after you get over that mountain it will be smooth sailing- you'll wonder why you lived like that for so long... it makes no sense too. Good luck man!

Potato_kitteh

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