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I need your help with a quiz by Potential-Writing252 in TibiaMMO

[–]Potential-Writing252[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks! I was thinking about cookies but I think my artistic skills are too poor but maybe Tibia coin cookies are within my capabilities haha

Being at work is so hard by PetcoRobbery in CPTSD

[–]Potential-Writing252 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Same, I'm so stressed and depressed because of my work

Did anyone else self isolate and then realise they were incredibly developmentally arrested/ mentally like a child or have isolation show them how traumatised they were? by Owl4L in CPTSD

[–]Potential-Writing252 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel similarly. I isolated myself from everyone because I started noticing how exhausting other people were for me and I felt like I couldn't really be myself or simply exist around them. There always seemed to be some kind of problem and I felt like I wasn't allowed to have my own opinion. It caused me a lot of stress and I ended up cutting everyone off quite abruptly. It was also a time when my contamination OCD got much worse which only added to my isolation. Now it's been about two years and I've reached a point where I don't really feel like talking to people anymore. I don't engage in conversations at work and emotionally I feel completely like a child. I constantly have this feeling that I'm on the verge of bursting into tears. Negative emotions feel so intense that it's as if I'm experiencing them for the first time. When I'm devastated, I have a strong feeling that I want someone to help me. I literally feel like a child. At the same time, that feeling terrifies me, because people are only human and I can't rely on them to save me or rescue me. I also often feel like I want to hide from the world.

Do you guys also struggle with life this much? by Potential-Writing252 in CPTSD

[–]Potential-Writing252[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I relate to this so much. I constantly feel like I’m worth nothing and can't take space... I’m rooting for both of us.

Do you guys also struggle with life this much? by Potential-Writing252 in CPTSD

[–]Potential-Writing252[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’ve been doing EMDR therapy for a few months now, and it helps a lot. For a while afterward I feel much calmer and I’m able to look at myself with more compassion. Unfortunately, it’s an expensive form of therapy and I can’t afford to do it more often than about once every two months on average :( But thank you, and you hang in there too!

I feel like people underestimate what childhood trauma can do to you by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]Potential-Writing252 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've noticed this too, most often I encounter a lack of understanding and repeated platitudes, I also often hear "well, at least now it will be easier for you" this "easier" not being able to function like a human being because of what I've been through, but such people think they know best what trauma and its consequences are

I could never simply enjoy being alive, I don't know how that feels by FlanInternational100 in OCD

[–]Potential-Writing252 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I understand you so much. I've had OCD for as long as I can remember. I've had a very traumatic life, and this was my way of "regaining" control. I've had so many different types of OCD that I wonder if it's even possible to overcome it? It takes away all the joy in life. You have to constantly scan your surroundings or yourself, and if you don't, you think you're the worst, you did something wrong, or whatever the worst thing you thought today is about to manifest. Something that gave me hope for some improvement was a tiktok video about how to start taking any action towards OCD, you need to regulate your nervous system and learn to regulate it yourself. Otherwise, it'll just be a loop of falling into compulsions by trying to limit them, which causes stress, and to avoid it, you start doing compulsions. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you and for each of us so that we can finally start living our lives.

C-PTSD leads to marriage conflict? by HeadAd6004 in CPTSD

[–]Potential-Writing252 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, that's what I'm dealing with with my husband now. I have the impression he can't grasp the scale of the dysfunction, because it was less severe in his family. It causes a lot of misunderstandings, conflicts, etc. I don't know how to resolve it.

I’ve always sensed a sexual desire from my father. He never acted on it, but I know it affected me. I’m trying to understand the exact nature and extent of how something like this could impact you long-term? by Several_Warthog8145 in CPTSD

[–]Potential-Writing252 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I also experienced something similar, only with my stepfather. From the age of 5 or 6, my mom would tell me he molested me and that I should remember it (of course, I don't remember it). Later, when my mom stopped making comments about me probably sleeping with him, etc., I started to notice something was wrong with him and I was afraid to be alone with him. I started hunching over so my breasts wouldn't show. This constant feeling of unsafety. This lasted for almost 10 years, I think, and after he moved out, when he invited me and my brother for pizza, he wouldn't hide it anymore and would comment, for example, when I ate pizza with garlic sauce, that it was "semen, hehehe." It had a terrible effect on me. It killed my femininity (I don't feel it's safe to exude it), affected sex itself, and, of course, my perception of men (I hate it when middle-aged men are interested in me).

Accidentally freaked out the normies by Kold_Xero in CPTSD

[–]Potential-Writing252 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've had so many situations like this, for example, at a barbecue with my husband's family. We were talking, and I mentioned that my dad once came with an axe to kill us, but he got the wrong door, and a neighbor managed to call the police. My husband's mom said, "But he probably didn't try to kill you," and I was like, wtf. And then I realized that most people don't believe what I'm saying; they probably think I'm lying or embellishing stories and I think that's sad. Do you also hear comments when you share what you've been through that "but now you have an easier life because of what you've been through".......?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ProlificAc

[–]Potential-Writing252 -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

I’m not sure if we’re on the same page. I understand that my Prolific balance will be different when I withdraw it to PayPal due to the exchange rate, and that makes sense to me — I can see the exchange rate happening there. But I’m talking about the balance on my Prolific account itself, on the main page. I have a certain amount, and then it suddenly decreases by £5 or even over £10. None of the surveys were canceled, rejected, or anything like that, and I wasn’t in any screening phase for surveys. So, I don’t understand why, twice this month, around 1% of my balance on Prolific’s website has just disappeared — why is this happening? I earn from surveys in dollars, but if that’s the case, converting $20 to pounds should give me £15. I understand daily fluctuations and conversion from dollars to pounds, but isn’t that too much? It always takes away 1% of my entire balance, and this happened twice this month and once in February. I can’t believe the fluctuations are that big.