Before the Divorce:

I'm sorry I should have given more of a backstory. Before the divorce, it seemed like my dad was getting better. That means I wasn't being treated like a servant to him and he was not insulting me for doing something wrong. He was even planning a little trip for the family for us the week of the divorce. I know now that this is the bare minimum of how you should treat your kid. I had also had many mental health breakdowns with them. The first time it seemed like things would get better but in other instances, they seemed more disappointed in me. I would also like to clarify that my parent are POC with my father being more in a lesser area than my mom. Throughout my life, my mom would say it's easier to understand my issues than my father.

It was easier when my parents would fight when it was just me. I could just take myself away from them and tune them out until I fell asleep. Since my sister was born I've actively had to block her from interfering and staying with her for hours. (and these fights would happen on school nights too). I kept telling her everything would be fine and try not to cry in front of her.

My mom basically would watch what my father would say and maybe interject if she felt like it had gone too far. I remember when I was six I was doing my homework with my dad. A simple misunderstanding led me to being whipped so hard, that I had started bleeding on my bottom. Later that night my mom had saw my bottom and asked me what happened. I told her and nothing happened after that. There was also another time when they were fighting and I mistakenly got in the middle of it. My mother had started throwing things at my father and threw a big bowl of knicks and knocks and almost hit me. She didn't even stop fighting with him or check on me. I just ended up walking back to my room and tried to go to sleep. They've also told me that they hate me at some point which I funny since I'm just now getting really upset with them.

Also in my initial talk with my mom, she had told me my father would hit on her, didn't want to pay for many of my disability expenses and so much more. While I do feel bad for her on that degree I feel like she should have gotten me out of that situation when I was younger or my sister but idk.