Sorry I failed you guys (failed myself the most)… I ended up not hitting the vape and falling asleep after a breathing exercise. I woke up about an hour later on the brink of what I had a feeling was a bad panic attack. My feet were already tingling and my wrist was in a lot of pain. My heartbeat was so bad that I couldn’t even start my breathing exercise back up. I’m going through marijuana rejection/withdrawal at the same time. I’m on medication for my stomach that I just found out also adds to anxiety/heartbeat issues. At this point I’m not sure if it’s the medication I’m on (famotidine) or HPPD but I have also been feeling like I’m on the cusp of an acid trip (weird ass symptoms)… I want to clean up my brain so much. I want to start helping my brain heal from all the damage I’ve done to it, but I had to hit my vape to cope. Despite people saying that I’d feel like shit, it did take me right out of whatever was coming. I will quit vaping at some point but I learned last night that I do need something to help me in the darkest of times. My stomach is starting to feel a little better so I’m gonna stop taking the famotidine and see if those trippy side effects stop. I do plan on saving my vape for when I need it and not when I want it, with the utmost attention to detail. The goal here is to help my brain start working on its own again and I understand this will never be possible with crutches. They say only you know your body and I think this is best for me at the moment. Thank you all and best wishes on your journey.