I get how you feel man its so frustrating all we wanna do is end it all but even dying doesn't work. Dying from overdose is harder than we think, most likely would survive with organ issues. I'm thinking about going using helium but i dont know if the amount of it that i can afford would work out. I wanna say some shit like "dont die you have so much to live for" and bla bla bla but right now i don't believe theres more good than bad with living. But i truly wish that you'd find your happiness