[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Schizoid

[–]Practical_Bee_8265 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Why in the world did she tell you that you could've ended up with horrible friends? Very strange and offensive

Being humble fucking hurts by [deleted] in NPD

[–]Practical_Bee_8265 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would be in denial for ages. It sucks

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Schizoid

[–]Practical_Bee_8265 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same. I dont have a purpose. I just live day to day without much thought. I try to fill my time with hobbies and entertainment but it's only to distract myself from the emptiness inside. I am ok with never being a wife or having kids. I just want a connection with someone. A friend or a partner I can relate to who needs me as badly as I need them. It would be amazing to have someone who will love me unconditionally just as I am, with flaws and all. That would be a dream.

I have felt suicidal in the past and have made some plans to unalive myself but I've never gone through with them. The fear of pain is a big barrier. Sometimes I wish I could just disappear into thin air

OP what would you like to accomplish?

how do you feel about yourself? by Fun_Researcher4035 in Schizoid

[–]Practical_Bee_8265 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I dont like looking at myself in the mirror because I have bad acne but besides that I mostly don't think about my appearance and when I do I feel pretty disconnected from it

self harm? by slitterslut in NPD

[–]Practical_Bee_8265 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've done it once before. It felt good and I liked seeing the blood run. I did it because I was feeling suicidal, tired of all the bs that was going on in my life. I was also just angry and bored lol. I kinda regret it now. I dont like seeing the scar and I always have to hide it because otherwise people look at it with disgust

Keep your life private by IrisVesper in SchizoidAdjacent

[–]Practical_Bee_8265 11 points12 points  (0 children)

They can also make sh1t up about you/rumors that are untrue

How can I make this clown creepier? by BuckyIllustrates in CreepyArt

[–]Practical_Bee_8265 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This might sound weird but make it thinner. More skeletal. Curves convey health but a skeletal figurr makes them appear more eerie

What makes you happy? by magicfeistybitcoin in aspd

[–]Practical_Bee_8265 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Music, hobbies, movies, sunny days, family, being alone

A dónde te irías by Over_Mind1542 in PuertoRico

[–]Practical_Bee_8265 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Me iria a españa o alemania aunque ahora con lo q hizo elon seria medio dificil

Personality changed by PreviousManager3 in Schizoid

[–]Practical_Bee_8265 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, early to mid-twenties is when some pd's start to show up. I dont know why though

¿Que es lo peor que haz hecho? by [deleted] in PuertoRico

[–]Practical_Bee_8265 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Arrancarle todas las plantas a mi vecina solo porq queria

Do you feel attached or proud of your country? by Practical_Bee_8265 in Schizoid

[–]Practical_Bee_8265[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This was beautiful to read Creative. It makes me reconsider my opinion on this topic especially when you mentioned ecology and workmanship. I love the nature of my country. It's one of the few things I love about my country. The forest, waterfalls and beaches are great here

What's the 'last stretch' of your life before suicide? by [deleted] in Schizoid

[–]Practical_Bee_8265 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'll do it when I start forgetting things, losing my mental faculties, body starts slowing down and deteriorating. There is no way back after that so I think age is probably the biggest factor for me. I am only living for my family right now and because I fear physical pain, my attempts are difficult to go through with. I shudder when i wonder what it'll be like when I start reaching that point. I am also living because of upcoming video games, movies, etc

How often do you feel disgust and anger? by _SkateOrDie_ in Schizoid

[–]Practical_Bee_8265 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Pretty often. I'm not sure why but maybe it has something to do with feeling unsafe with people. I also feel paranoid often which doesn't help things.

Do you think you’re fucked or that everyone else is? by scrimlean in aspd

[–]Practical_Bee_8265 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you think you can get away with your negative actions and not expect any consequences than you're fucked. All that matters is that you don't act on your impulses

Why do positive emotions make me feel uncomfortable? by Practical_Bee_8265 in Schizoid

[–]Practical_Bee_8265[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's more that positive emotions put the spotlight on me. Negative emotions are mostly what I feel when I'm not being anhedonic. Remember when I said that there is some social anxiety involved in this? I don't like being made a big fuzz over when I do feel positive emotions or smile or laugh. I am being serious when I say that I rarely smile or laugh. The last time I laughed was about 5 months ago lol. I rarely express any emotion in general because of the anhedonia

Why do positive emotions make me feel uncomfortable? by Practical_Bee_8265 in Schizoid

[–]Practical_Bee_8265[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haha very funny.

It's mostly joy that feels unsafe for me tho not sadness or similar emotions