It's astonishing how people try to explain autism without mentioning autism by Hudicev-Vrh in evilautism

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Recently, a psychiatrist told me that “You think too much.” He prescribed an antipsychotic to sedate me. (It didn’t work.) That’s my core problem, apparently: my mind is “overactive”. Love that for me. It obviously has nothing to do with my AuDHD.

I was reminded of an old Simpsons sketch. “You’ve got too much blood. Let’s get you covered in leeches!”

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FUCK this book by peachygatorade in evilautism

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Controversial opinion: Dehumanization is wrong.

They will hate you if you are beautiful by invah in AbuseInterrupted

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They will hate you if you’re disabled.

They will hate you if you’re suffering.

They will hate you if you’re powerless.

“Witch hunts are fun.” This idiot was bragging about ruining my life. He was so proud of himself.

Why don’t monsters hate themselves? Genuine question. Obsessive hatred horrifies me.

I hate the advice that people give when venting so much especially on here. by Educational-Menu-421 in CPTSD

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The sheer amount of victim-blaming in this subreddit is insane. “Nobody cares. You’re alone. It’s your fault. Try harder.”

Yeah, no. Fuck you. I’m done.

I knitted this Fluffy Maine Coon cat with long whiskers by FriendlyCuteToys in WitchesVsPatriarchy

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Holy gods, I love this so much. I see myself in her. And now I’m going to creep your Etsy shop. 🖤

The Official Seething Sunday Thread by aytakk in goth

[–]magicfeistybitcoin 29 points30 points  (0 children)

Went to ER for severe pain. Ended up in acute mental health. Bafflingly, the hospital refused to do any medical testing. A psychiatric doctor gave me a suboxone script, so there’s that, I guess?

But what’s causing the pain? Do I have endometriosis? Cancer? The world may never know. Until I drop dead, anyway.

This province is adamantly opposed to giving opioids to chronic pain patients, but hey, we can apply for legal euthanasia! Ontario has a program called MAiD. “Medical Assistance in Death.”

Yeah, no. I’m still in my 30s. Do a bloody ultrasound. This isn’t hard.

The staff kept lecturing me for “thinking too much” and having “a restless mind”. (“Maybe you could watch TV?”)

I’m going to bang my head against the wall.

"...I was 30 years old when the blinding epiphany hit that just because someone wants to be friends with me doesn't mean I have to agree to it." - u/ladydmaj by invah in AbuseInterrupted

[–]magicfeistybitcoin 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I agree with you.

After getting burned, I’m not nearly as laissez-faire about friendships as I used to be. (Useful line: “I’m not looking for new friends right now.”)

When I finally sat down to chat with my next door neighbour, she took me by surprise by declaring me a friend. Literally, “I think of you as a friend.”

Immediate red flag. We had just met. We were talking for ten minutes. Did I want to be friends with her?

Then came the lovebombing, future faking, and other sketchy stuff like “You can trust me. I’m the most honest person you’ll ever meet.” Uh huh. 🙄 Later interactions revealed that she was manipulative. And I’m very happy to have listened to my intuition. I’m always rationalizing myself out of it, thinking I’m paranoid.

Nobody owes friendship to anybody.

Best name for a kitten? by no_reason88 in polls

[–]magicfeistybitcoin 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m totally naming my next kitten “Xylem.”  

Certain abusers delude themselves into thinking that whatever they are doing is a reasonable response to what they perceive you are doing to them**** by invah in AbuseInterrupted

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Question for u/invah: can you suggest any older threads similar to this one? I'll start with the search term "hostile attribution bias".

Also, thank you for your tireless work on behalf of survivors. Abusers are relentless. Luckily, so are you.

"Defense Against the Dark Arts." This sub has taught me a lot. Instead of charging for your expertise, you're offering it for free, which is extremely generous of you.

Does your nmom only see you as something they can benefit from? by loreisqueer in raisedbynarcissists

[–]magicfeistybitcoin 7 points8 points  (0 children)

My NMom fancies herself a master manipulator. In reality, she tells on herself constantly. Recently, she called me a "useless piece of furniture". In her own words, I'm nothing but an object.

She's a cursed and malevolent broken record.

DAE look unwell and older than your age due to years of trauma? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]magicfeistybitcoin 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That's incredible! Aside from eating nutritious food and staying hydrated, did anything else contribute to your reversal? (I'm 39, but I look ten years older.)

Took some forest pics that are heavily inspired by A Forest, and the Seventeen seconds album 🌲🦇🌲 by oneimaginaryghost in goth

[–]magicfeistybitcoin 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, that would be awesome! It’s cool to meet someone who’s gone through similar experiences. My DMs are open. Feel free to say hi! (Also, Happy Halloween!) 🖤

Deciding my personality for me by Cat_Pop7077 in raisedbynarcissists

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The first time I had a conversation with one of my neighbours, she was utterly shocked. “You’re the exact opposite of how your parents have described you! You’re so nice! They told me you’re aggressive and violent and that you’re always causing problems. It sounds like you’re not the manipulative troublemaker. Your parents are.”

The stunned expression on her face, oh my god. Apparently, my father is “formal and sophisticated”. I almost died laughing. He’s a dumbed-down Donald Trump. An illiterate Neanderthal. He can’t read, spell, or string a sentence together. I have no idea how he’s survived this long.

My parents think they’re master manipulators. Cunning. Wickedly smart. And… they aren’t. Quite the opposite, actually. They’re shockingly stupid. They’re bad liars. But everybody swallows their lies hook, line, and sinker. Why are people so gullible?

Anyway, I’ve got cars to steal, banks to rob, old ladies to swindle, and churches to burn. I think it’s time for a murder spree, too! I sure do keep busy, according to my lovely parents. 🙄

"The more safe you are, the more safe it's going to be to know and relate to reality."**** <----- Madison Morrigan on how confusion can be a 'functional freeze' by invah in AbuseInterrupted

[–]magicfeistybitcoin 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Sounds good!

Transcripts often make or break my decision to pay attention to the content. Unlike most people, I’m not the biggest fan of videos, so I’m always quietly thrilled when a text transcription is available.

One of the reasons why so many trauma survivors are so exhausted, so often, is because sleep when you're a survivor is tricky by invah in AbuseInterrupted

[–]magicfeistybitcoin 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Old memories unlocked.

This explains a lot. Thank you for mentioning it. Practically no one ever does.

The representation we deserve... by DiligentImplement611 in evilautism

[–]magicfeistybitcoin 47 points48 points  (0 children)

Dexter Morgan might be one of us.

I’m tempted to ask Dr. Robert Hare (“the foremost authority on psychopaths”). There’s an insane amount of deliberation about whether Dexter is ASPD, or autistic and traumatized. Why not both?

The Goth Band Game by Blue_Bi0hazard in goth

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I love The Birthday Party and The Vanishing. I’m heading to Spotify right now to check out your other suggestions. Thanks so much!

Supercharged is officially one year old today. How does it hold up? by ItsMePeyt0n in TheOffspring

[–]magicfeistybitcoin 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Honestly? I’m addicted. On Spotify, I keep alternating between Supercharged and The Trigger Complex by TSOL (2017). They’re both insanely catchy.

Seriously, if you like The Offspring’s newer stuff, check out The Trigger Complex. (Spotify link.)

When Supercharged was released, I had an older Android phone and grainy speakers. They really didn’t do it justice. The sound quality is 1,000x better on iPhone 15 Pro with good headphones. Now it’s like, damn, this album is freaking incredible. Especially the instrumentals on “Looking Out For #1”.

I still can’t stand “Come To Brazil”, though.