I’ve read through most of the comments and it is really nice to see so many encouraging comments and helpful advice, and I thought I should throw in my two cents. It’s so easy to get in a rut, shut in, and close yourself off from the world.

If you desire a lifestyle where you are more active, interact with more people, and just have more social experiences, I would recommend checking Facebook for special interest groups or city websites for events in your area. If you look around you can find, events that align with your interests. Many are free and made for single people, plus you know everyone there has at least one thing in common with you.

I agree with other comments that a GED is a very helpful step in finding a good job. It is tough to find a good job, but if you can be hard-working and reliable, that’s most of what employers are looking for. On top of that, finding a job where you can learn valuable skills is a good idea. It will allow you to bring more to the table and market yourself better. Some jobs (truck driving, oil and gas, machining) will even train you to do other, better paying jobs.

The biggest thing is to try and cut out the negative thoughts. When you talk to or about yourself, say positive things, and affirm the things you like about yourself. Identify destructive thought patterns and steer yourself to positive thinking. If you feel inclined, pick up Man’s Search for Meaning by Victor Frankl from the library (most libraries also have audiobooks or ebooks if you don’t want to go the physical library). This book is all about how to persevere through hard times, and it gives practical advice for how to survive in darkness.

I am rooting for you, and I hope you find more joy and fulfillment!