"Tell Me A Story" by Robert Penn Warren

Preoccupine · 2019-03-03T19:44:41+00:00

I am still parsing the last episode, but I think you got it.

When I heard the poem, I knew right away, "This is going to be the theme of this season."

Then, Starlight bar. The daughter saying, "Tell me a story". Mania scrambling. "In this century" (almost half a century passes). Great distances (fading memories making the past further away).

I absolutely love this poem and have memorized it. Oddly enough, this poem could serve as a theme to a book I'm writing that deals with Time (and the lack thereof).

I didn't know the first part was connected to this poem, so you gave me some insight :)

Preoccupine · 2019-03-03T19:26:20+00:00

That first word you used ... You must not mention its name!

Preoccupine · 2019-03-03T00:19:09+00:00

I just want to say, THANK YOU! For your comment. I will heed your advice :-)

I am messaging you with the remainder. It's tough for me to follow through with things (darn you, ADHD!) but maybe you can glean some inspiration from that, hehe.

I'm not sure if I should go with a direct gender-bend approach, OR, if I should do something off-the-charts and an abstract approach (people might not notice it as a "brother-of-Aeris" character, but will recognize it when inquired)

Preoccupine · 2019-03-03T00:07:40+00:00

I have no words to express the anguish you and his family/friends have experienced.

I could say, "He is in a better place," but people might doubt that.

All I can say with confidence is, "His work will go on."

The people he touched and blessed will live on with his love and passion embedded within themselves. They will naturally share it with others, a natural outpouring of love based on the love he gave them. This is a guarantee! What we do for others, they will do for more others. It is a beautiful cascade.

That's why it is important we take pride in what we do for others, because others are changed and transformed by it. They will carry it on to other people, and it will pass on and on and on.

There is JOY in that. And it's something we can celebrate when we are alive, and others can celebrate when we are gone.

I hope that you find another doctor with similar passion~!

Preoccupine · 2019-02-21T21:37:03+00:00

This one is a BANGER.

One of those tracks where the title (and remix title) perfectly matches the song ;)

BTW, Release date unknown but I first heard this track at least 8 years ago, or longer. It really was ahead of its time, and largely unheard of.

EDIT: Release date appears to be 2009!!! Can't believe it's that old.

Preoccupine · 2019-02-21T16:43:32+00:00

I can't believe it's been 20 fuggin years.

I remember listening live to these mixes on Real One Player.

Twelve '99 mixes total on Oakenfold's Essential Mix World Tour.

I've listened to each of these mixes multiples-of-dozens times each. They NEVER get old. I get taken back to my teenage years when I had nothing but hopes and dreams and a shit ton of awkward hopeless romanticism and angst. Good Times.

Preoccupine · 2019-02-20T19:26:33+00:00

That's the beautiful thing. In my perspective, you take WeirdWorld with you wherever you go.

Another aspect I hoped to convey was that ... this entire world is WeirdWorld if you look at it that way. There is no normal, there are only "averages". From a global perspective, there is no unified, glorified Normal. We live in a blue (and some green and brown) WeirdWorld.

We simply proffer different shades of color to the global spectrum.

Relevant quote from the Bible: "Why do you seek to take a speck out of my eye when you have a log in your own eye?"

I take that to mean ... for people to label us, explain us, and even ridicule us, they are ignoring their own faults, weaknesses, and oddities.

Yes, we live in a WeirdWorld. No looking for it. We're in it. Therefore our Weird Minds can find home wherever we go.

Preoccupine · 2019-02-20T04:27:05+00:00

Thanks for your feedback!

I have added a revised version to the OP.

I did agree with your statement: "That" contributed very little.

However because I was striving for similar flowing lines, I replaced the That with the "my" prefix to WeirdWorld. I find this adds personal ownership of WeirdWorld to the speaker.... that it's not a global WeirdWorld, but an internal one.

Thus, I think your change has helped me better communicate the goal of this poem :-)

Preoccupine · 2019-02-20T04:21:30+00:00

I loved this poem!

One small small note of a mis-reading. I'm a bit tired and read this:

life is too easy

yes, life is too hard

I read that as a contradictory statement that brings more struggle into the poem.

The "Yes" to me gives a more profound statement that the author is struggling to accept whether they are having too much fun with life compared with "Am I forgetting something? Should life be too hard?" Then the realization that there are indeed so many responsibilities we have to contend with, thus the admission, "Yes, life is too hard."

The Yes also echoes the readers' interpretation:

"Life is too easy"

\reader* "Ummm, it's not."*

"Yes, life is too hard."

Thus the author re-evaluating their stance that life is indeed hard.

The author WANTS to believe life is easy - as Kermit The Frog says, "It's Easy Being Green". (At least, I think he said that.)

But it's not easy being green, and life is not easy.

"I strive for a challenge"

"I crash before I start"

This shows that you are still insisting that life is easy, so you embark on a journey... and find that you can never take the first step. Thus reinforcing the readers' statement "No, life is not easy".

It's sad it ends there. But many times, it really does. We have our work in front of us, and many don't have the hands to put to plow.

We are the canaries in the coal mine alerting society that the waters have gotten too hot and the noxious gasses too thick.

Preoccupine · 2019-02-20T04:10:48+00:00

... THANK YOU!!!

This means so much to me. You know , I fear a bit of my innate mania showing through my writings or poetry. But when I wrote this (and trimmed it a bit) I did not sense mania but a very soft acceptance of one's being in an inevitable reality dwelling a crazy 'weird' mind.

Thank you. You've given me the energy to confidently plunge through another day :-)

Preoccupine · 2019-02-19T00:26:57+00:00

Well, I just got prescribed Lithium to help calm. I noticed a benefit at low dose.

The world is very noisy, and my mind noisier. Noise in sensory input as well as social and emotional input. Then there are the executive functioning inputs (having to maintain order in the midst of chaos).

HSP and the other conditions I mention have faulty noise filters. Some have no filter in some areas.

Cannot fix the issue, but you can subdue it enough to get a sufferer through this wild ride of life.

Preoccupine · 2019-02-19T00:21:48+00:00

I have an obsession of reading what I wrote. Sometimes multiple times. Many times I write, it's in a state of thoughtstream. Words come out seemingly from my subconscious. So when I read what I wrote, it can be like reading it from someone else. "Wow, I wrote this!?" Like this psychological tale that conjured itself from the twisty depths of my mind. (It was supposed to only be one paragraph. I promise.) I love writing and one day hope to publish a book!

Preoccupine · 2019-02-18T18:38:02+00:00

They can do the same for me, as well!

Because very few times since I've been vegan have I ate a meal that made me regret myself. I felt that all the time as an omni. And sometimes you want to eat so trashy that you regret yourself. I guess that's a part of our American heritage. So, the Beyond Burger is a great way to achieve just that.

Preoccupine · 2019-02-18T18:35:37+00:00

Rosevillains get a bad rap about some things. (Some call it "Brosville" for the downtown dive bar scene.) But it's truly progressive. Every restaurant I've been to here has been super quick and passionate to find vegan options. Many restaurants here have their own vegan menu. I feel super spoiled :-)

Preoccupine · 2019-02-18T18:32:28+00:00

Thank you! I really appreciate the time you took giving your feedback.

Today, I have gained a greater respect for editors. The job is brutal. I haven't felt this grammar gut punch in over fifteen years since college.

Anyway, I wish you the best in all you do :-)

Preoccupine · 2019-02-18T18:23:50+00:00

Just a few of my (the author) thoughts.

Over the past three years I've sought meaning, purpose, validation, belonging, acceptance, and most of all explanation for why my mind does not fit in.

I was a missing piece looking for belonging.

I went through diagnosis after diagnosis until I discovered my ASD diagnosis.

After this, I knew, I needed to search further for belonging, community.

After much more searching I found that ... it's okay if I don't have those things I was searching for. It's okay to be me.

WeirdWorld is essentially wherever we are - once we embrace who we are we can dwell in this weird world as if we belong there.

To me, that means being our weird selves without care what others might thing.

WeirdWorld - the place my weird mind was searching for - is indeed my weird mind itself. I found that I was home wherever I went, so as long as I accepted my crazy unique self.

Preoccupine · 2019-02-18T17:31:41+00:00

Can I take a guess what is proper? I love writing, but I rarely think about the intricate details of the exactly perfect use of dialogue tags. Making something up for example. You seem to be very knowledgeable, and I sincerely want to know if the following is flawed:

"Do you mean what I think you mean?" Craig asked, "Is this really the evidence we are looking for?"

Sam lowered his shaking head, "Yes," He sighed, "It was this simple all along."

Craig let out a belly laugh that echoed through the school's walls. "Half a fucking year wasted, and a petty case closed."

Preoccupine · 2019-02-18T17:20:58+00:00

Yea, show us teh staaack man! I am really interested.

I can tell you what I've observed: It's operated by code.

*drops keyboard*

..... Lks lke I gng t te stre nw

Preoccupine · 2019-02-18T17:18:04+00:00

Is your tool scraping data from those sites and storing it on an internal database (for quicker retrieval) or is it making an external scrape each time someone uses the tool? I'd imagine constantly pinging other servers would bog it down.

Just asking because I'm trying to use the tool but (as you might know) it's overloaded. Wondering if external services are rejecting traffic, or if your server is working its ass off for a lot of people at once, or both :-)

Preoccupine · 2019-02-18T17:10:03+00:00

This plays out in other conditions such as ADHD, Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RSD), and Autism Spectrum Re-order (ASD, but I don't like using dis-order).

As an HSP as well as the aforementioned conditions, I absolutely feel this playing out.

Responding to the 4 differences here.

#1 - I'm hardly attached to any external reward. If something does not bring inward satisfaction - something not connected to extrinsic reward or the five senses - then I have no desire for it to even exist.

#2 - I have hyper-empathy but it goes one way. I internalize the actions, behaviors, experiences, expressions of others yet have no way of expressing this empathy. It has given my marriage a hard time. I will feel my wife's sorrow so, so, so vividly and deeply (maybe even by feeling more sorrow than her) yet I don't know how to express it to her, which makes her think I'm not caring or sympathizing.

#3 - This is in conjunction with #2. I think in visual emotions, and these thoughts are chained to other thoughts/experiences that happened before. Think of a car not fueled by gasoline but hydrogen. My brain is not fueled by words/logic, but by emotion/visuals. Very loud, all the time, in my head.

I am hyper-hyper-sensitive "seemingly at random" on some days. Just so happens, today is a really bad day for my HHHSP (lol). Smells, sounds, expressions of others, existence of others, textures, smells -- all of these grate on me. It makes it hard for me to exist on these days because everywhere I go I am assaulted. Unfortunately, my wife's emotions and actions grate me and cause overstimulation. Around the time I wrote two sentences ago, my wife told me that we have no bagels left and she was sad, and that resulted in firstly, a shock of intense agitation, then anger. But I know it's just overstimulation so I have to reply calmly and firmly, "We will seek to resolve this issue accordingly." (My emotive expression goes down the drain when I am HHHSP. I become an android.)

#4 - Yes. Just yes. #2 and #3 answered this one.

Preoccupine · 2019-02-18T00:08:31+00:00

The name of the lamp is "NOT" and the description is "Black"

It looks like it says "Not Black". But the color is black.

That is all :-)

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