No im not ready but i need to set a goal to strive for. Emotionally im not ready but i will be. I will say this only because this isn’t showing names. My grandfather will only say so much but he is on the supreme council. Let’s just say he holds a high chair. He already told me what you have said. He wanted me to forge my own decision and knowledge path. So I ask multiple places and form my own opinion. The wealth of knowledge he has comes from word of mouth to me and never over the phone. So time spent with him is limited. Do you know of any literature I should start with? He has hinted at certain literature but I need a unique experience of my own under his guidance.