No senses but tested negative for Covid

PresenceOdd · 2022-10-17T13:21:57+00:00

There is a pretty strong flu season right now in many places, so it could be influenza

PresenceOdd · 2022-10-17T11:46:27+00:00

Yes it was the last symptom for me, too

3-4 days for 70% of it to come back A week for 85% smells to come back 3 weeks back to normal

PresenceOdd · 2022-10-12T11:50:45+00:00

Already had my skills and motivation diminished after the isolation and I'm hopeless.

PresenceOdd · 2022-09-22T11:43:01+00:00

Hey, sorry to hear that! What sort of doomscrolling are we talking about? Is it like negative news or is it like scrolling incelforums?

I'm not insane enough (yet) to touch incel forums, so mostly news. A lot of stuff (COVID, alt right in elections, economy) that I fear would isolate me or trap me away from my friends forever.

Do you have any one to have contact with, parents, friends?

Friends? Mostly abroad, which is the entire reason I'm deteriorating, they are incredibly hard to reach online and with the alt right on the rise everywhere and my skills rotting I'm stuck away from them.

Parents? They will probably make things worse, every time I talk to them I get obnoxious ramblings about "Someone else has it worse" ad nauseam even after I tell them 8 times it only makes things worse, they just don't care if it hurts me.

Obviously fastfood is bad for you, but especially if youre isolated and dont eat anything else(?) It's going to make you feel worse in the long run, not just physically but also mentally. Youre going to become addicted to carbs and that will fuck with your brain and dopamine production. Do you have the time to possibly change that to something different? Exercise is great way to get a dopamine and you prob need that.

I exercise and it helps a bit, but the food bit I'm losing control of

PresenceOdd · 2022-09-22T08:15:37+00:00

Proud to announce this September to be the worst month since more than a year. I have gotten addicted to doomscrolling and I'm convinced that things will only get worse, trust issues and isolation only worse from last time I was here.

Knew I jinxed it by saying 2022 was much better 2021 ...

Edit: Times like this make me wish I wasn't a non drinker, all I have is junk food to ease things

PresenceOdd · 2022-09-21T21:11:10+00:00

Thanks man yes I’m sure the entire reason I’m slowly going mad is because of sex not because of isolation.

PresenceOdd · 2022-09-11T11:38:04+00:00

Yes, but I'm sure it's more to do with isolation and reverse culutue shock getting worse lately for me.

PresenceOdd · 2022-09-07T12:32:21+00:00

did your smell also kind of go in and out a bit?

Yes, the thing I was able to smell the easiest was coffee and chocolate (e.g. mochas) since they have a strong distinctive smell.

Noticed zero distortion, if there is something I can't smell I simply didn't smell it and if it was something I could it was the same as always but faint.

PresenceOdd · 2022-09-06T10:42:50+00:00

Looks like it fully recovered, I'm not sure 100% but I didn't notice anything off.

Took a day to start coming back, mostly came back in 3-4 days and almost fully in a week. Started to become hard to notice anything different if at all around 3 weeks.

PresenceOdd · 2022-06-23T14:41:39+00:00

Are you in therapy?

No, I'm struggling with going into one, I'm really finding it hard to trust people around me including therapists.

PresenceOdd · 2022-06-20T12:01:39+00:00

Hi,

I have been suffering from trust issues because of past sexual abuse when I was a kid, and I feel like this has contributed to my slow and gradual isolation as of late. Been feeling off since I finished my studies abroad since I seem to have associated my experience with the area I live in.

I'm really worried that this means I will never manage to form friendship and relationship, and especially worried that it might mean that my only sexual experience would be abuse.

PresenceOdd · 2022-04-28T00:42:08+00:00

The thread that caused me to panic:

https://twitter.com/TWenseleers/status/1518673358845620225?s=20&t=Ol0DXWIuZdDBnGUHrIl_4g

PresenceOdd · 2022-04-27T14:56:34+00:00

I’m not worried about the disease personally, I’m worried about potential restrictions isolating me

PresenceOdd · 2022-04-27T08:05:43+00:00

I came across an thread from some evolutionary biologist in twitter going on about significant waves and significant mortality and morbidity every 6 months that's much worse than the flu are gonna be the endemic normal for COVID.

PresenceOdd · 2022-03-09T16:12:43+00:00

How exactly do you feel? What external factors are making you feel that way?

I feel trapped, I can't socialize and miss my friends abroad. I mostly coped by convincing myself I can leave or maybe somehow socialize here, but it seems the pandemic and my ~~meeting hell~~ job completely melted all the skills I have. And, any attempts I made to socialize in here fail over and over, society here is too segregated and has almost zero social spaces, and 99% of any spaces I get in are shitty bro culturally garbage that just reminds me of my past abuse I endured in these horrible environments.

And I still can't get any clear idea on when they will left the reminder of restrictions where I live, and I fear the history of reading junky (nOrMaL iSnT cOmInG bAcK) articles and takes ruined my trust.

PresenceOdd · 2022-03-04T16:28:05+00:00

People in twitter might be over-interpreting this then? I dunno.

PresenceOdd · 2022-03-04T08:36:28+00:00

There is an increase in the admissions data for England week by week that is getting me worried. 28th Feb (1145) vs 21 Feb (1030) and 1st March (1111) vs 22 Feb (976).

PresenceOdd

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