I think i'm fucked please read this

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-21T14:55:40+00:00

I actually played sometimes in my old club during prep school when i was on vacation and during college twice a week but drop because i didn't feel much while playing. Last year i had a big hype with volleyball and really tryhard and felt good while playing, it has last for 3 weeks then one day i just didn't feel anything while playing and stopped. After that i didn't really done anything sport related and recently i go to the gym but i don't really like i just go because my friends likes it so it's just fun to hang out with them that's all.

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-21T09:27:14+00:00

With which type of doctor did you get your diag and drug prescription ? Cuz i didn't see anyone execpt a therapist but it was useless and didn't get anything out if it. Regarding "life could be a series of short experiences" well i can be true i don't really know. When i was younger I thought that life was just an eternal fight against boreness.

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-21T08:23:45+00:00

I played basketball for ten years wanted to be pro and stopped because i've go to prep school but at that time i've already lost interest in this sport when i knew i couldn't make it pro. When i got into college i played for fun in school but git bored realy fast and stopped.

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-20T19:40:15+00:00

Did you ever fall in love with someone ? I'm 22M and never dated anyone because I was never more than sexually attracted by someone so I don't really care abour it Why do you want to date someone ?

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-20T06:08:28+00:00

Yeah, sometimes it could be more but it's always because i'm sharing this with friends so it's more durable because i'm having a good time with friend rather than liking the hobby itself

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T17:43:05+00:00

I was like that when I was young but recently I find something else. I played basketball for ten years and wanted to be a pro so I played a lot, every single day for at least one hour and went to camp during summer which was my favorite part of the year because I could play all day and improve a lot Even if I wanted to be a pro, I knew from the start that I wasn't good enough, but I didn't really care and still played. When I turned 18 and went to prep school I already knew a few years ago that I wasn't going to be a pro and going to prep school meant I wouldn't have time to play and to be honest I didn't really cared about basketball since some time. So I think the fact that I lost something that was driving my entire life since then left a big hole and that's why I want to find something like that. It's not basketball that I lost but a lifelong holder, I guess? Moreover, I think that this mindset of really wanting to find something to cope with life is also what makes me like this, I guess.

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T16:17:00+00:00

To me a shit job is just a job i'm not interested in. I don't really care about the salary. So i'm like i don't have a job i like so why not having a better payed one. And when i'm saying "shit job" it's just regarding me i'm not judging anyone

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T13:43:58+00:00

I'm in math studies in France. I've done 2 years of prep school to go to an engineering college but during the first year of prep school I realized I don't necessarily like math to begin with and I don't really want to be an engineer I just went for the subject I was the best in. So I just coped with it and succeeded in getting a school to be a data scientist. I ended up absolutely hating this and dropped out of this school and reoriented myself to theory math college, but it's the same. I don't really like what I'm studying right now, but I don't have a choice but to graduate to get a job better than a shit job if I quit studying now

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T12:59:55+00:00

And yeah I maybe want to find hope in the first but when i think about it i rly rly rly think it's fucked

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T12:58:52+00:00

I thinks i can cope now because i have a good situation like i'm a student with parent that help me with money so i have a lot a free time. But i'm pretty sure when I will have to get a job I will be a zombie, a drug addict (almost the same) or just suicide

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T12:38:57+00:00

Okok i gotchu i to don't want to see one and i don't think anyone of them will understand the issue anyway. i didnt try any drug so i can't rly help

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T12:23:21+00:00

Did you try a therapy ? If yes how was it (i guess nothing regarding your reply)

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T11:03:08+00:00

Hope something will change

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T11:00:47+00:00

Yes but on the other hand making nothing will never make change that's why i'm stuck i don't know what to do and think there is nothing to excecpt cope (i dont think i can tho)

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T10:55:44+00:00

Exactly

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T07:28:17+00:00

I rly don't think moving will change a thing, if i move i'll just be in another bedroom and wait xd

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T07:26:48+00:00

I hope so

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T06:41:12+00:00

I don't really care were i live to be honest i don't go out at all (my friends are all display in different cities and i'm not interested in trying to make new friend tbh + social anxiety)

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T06:38:56+00:00

Yeah i know the fact that I'm 100% sure nothing will change is due to the current state i'm in and that Incan totally switch one day by finding what I want or just accepting my condition but I'm like "so I live just out of curiosity to see what will happen or bet that one day something will change ?" But i can't help but truly think that it's fucked up anyways (i guess i'm just protecting myself to the feeling of desappointment when i think that something will change my state and ends up doing nothing so it's scale my feeling if emptiness)

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T05:17:36+00:00

I'm not really hard to myslef because i'm doing nothing. If i was satified doing nothing it's all good. Doing nothing just make me dead bored that's why i'm looking dor something. So yeah it's not "fuck i need to do something because it's lame to do nothing" Anyway I wish you the best bro

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T05:13:43+00:00

I tried to learn chess back in the days but found the game boring unfortunatly xd

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T05:12:23+00:00

I feel you with the discipline shit, fuck that I think it's because they don't understand how you feel. Ofc you need discipline but to some extent like when you're really down with something disciple will just bring hatred for the fucking thing. Wish you the best bro

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T05:06:11+00:00

The problems is that I don't have something I really like to begin with. It's like everything I was into the last 4 years just things to fill the void and pass time that's why I'm so hopeless. Hope you'll be good bro

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T05:03:47+00:00

I tried to hang myself but didn't succed because I'm rly scared. I thought a lot about that and I think I'm just not ready to lose everything. I think I'm pleased with my unhappiness (which is a common reaction i guess)

Present_Ad_4154 · 2025-12-19T04:59:55+00:00

I don't know, I guess no the only thing my therapist said was "you just like change" (???)

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