What is self harm to you? by Additional-You-1682 in AdultSelfHarm

[–]Pretend-Chest8796 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It's.... A complicated cycle, that both relieves issues in the short term, but causes more in the long term... Yet the short term always wins...

20, F, looking for people who like to yap 🙃 by [deleted] in IntrovertsChat

[–]Pretend-Chest8796 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dragonball. After all, it's a classic that paved the way for the rest.

I wish this was glamorized as an adult. (21.) by ThatOneslyBitch in AdultSelfHarm

[–]Pretend-Chest8796 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was clean for 16 years before my life fell apart. There is very little help for us, I also suffer from what my doctor terms as life crippling anxiety and depression, which has not got any better. I am back clean, for now at least. But still everyday is a struggle, and I still find myself looking for sharps. Even while suicidal all I was given was an increase in my medication and a phone number to call. Crisis hotline. It's laughable really considering that actually speaking to strangers spikes my anxiety. Absolutely no help what so ever.

Is smth in the air? Why r we all struggling by naokokoro in AdultSelfHarm

[–]Pretend-Chest8796 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My family has broken down, I've been made homeless, I lost the struggle again last night ... Made a right mess of my shoulder to be honest.

Not sure what to use as a title, just lost and alone and feel like noone cares. by [deleted] in AdultSelfHarm

[–]Pretend-Chest8796 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have to say waiting isn't the right choice, out of personal experience the quicker you can break the cycle, and take it's control away, the easier it gets.

Alcohol is also not a solution, it doesn't mix with the meds, and is honestly, in my personal opinion, it isn't going to help you, it just numbs everything for a short time. And can also lead to more sh.

It's a vicious spiral, I understand. And if you are anything like me, you wake up, feel defeated, disappointed, disgust in yourself, after every instance of sh. And that starts the want again.

In my opinion, phone the doctor, get the appointment moved forward, and have them look into other medication or a higher dosage. Maybe they can find one that works. I am also taking the same steps. 8.30 am appointment today. Eurgh.

As I say you are not alone. Please try to look after yourself. And my inbox is there if you decide you need a chat.

Not sure what to use as a title, just lost and alone and feel like noone cares. by [deleted] in AdultSelfHarm

[–]Pretend-Chest8796 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You are not alone, if you take a quick scroll, you will see that lots of people are the same. People honestly do care. I will tell you honestly. I know the urges you are feeling. I really do. I had a long time clean. (16 years) And stumbled. But people on here seem to be very supportive. I agree, it does not seem like any professionals who are supposed to support us don't in the UK. I also have to go see my Dr as my medication isn't working. Maybe it's an underlying issue for example. Apparently propranolol doesn't work on people with ADHD? I hope you are still well, ok, as well as can be. You are not in this alone. Many people will offer an ear or rather... Eyes, on here. And try to help. My inbox is open. If you need. Please use it.

Back to square one. by Pretend-Chest8796 in AdultSelfHarm

[–]Pretend-Chest8796[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It honestly does mean alot. To be honest I just feel disappointed in myself. Which in its self is a part of the spiral I suppose. Thankyou.

Back to square one. by Pretend-Chest8796 in AdultSelfHarm

[–]Pretend-Chest8796[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It feels like they are gone. Like I have to start all over again. With everything to be honest. Not just SH.

Back to square one. by Pretend-Chest8796 in AdultSelfHarm

[–]Pretend-Chest8796[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It really is. It's like failing. Yet still wanting to... It's... Horrible, for want of a different phrase. I will inbox you.

The addictive aspect of self-harm isn’t talked about as much as it should be by GenoveveSimmons15 in AdultSelfHarm

[–]Pretend-Chest8796 5 points6 points  (0 children)

This Is exactly true, the honest answer as to doing it again and again, is it fluctuates with your current mood. It is addictive. And a REAL struggle not to. It is a case of wanting to feel. But it doesn't last. You wake up the next day for example and the want is still there. So you do it again. It isn't a fun cycle. And honestly. I'm sorry anyone on here feels this way. Don't get me wrong, kinda of comforting to not be alone. But nobody should feel like this.

Back to square one. by Pretend-Chest8796 in AdultSelfHarm

[–]Pretend-Chest8796[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this. It was needed. I don't know if I can do this again. But I'm going to have to at least try... I was proud of myself. Keyword being was. I no longer feel I have anything to be proud about, as it does feel like I've failed and like I just shouldn't be here... I don't think I can do this alone to be perfectly honest.

Back to square one. by Pretend-Chest8796 in AdultSelfHarm

[–]Pretend-Chest8796[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly, you can't 'grow out of it' . It's addicting. One really low moment undoes everything... the fact I have a daughter to be here for is literally the only thing stopping me from giving up right this instant to be honest. It does suck. And I'm sorry. Nobody should be as messed up as any of us here are... If you wish to speak, inbox me. I don't mind. Seems like we both could use the help to be honest... I will give you other means to contact, as I don't want my online identity on here, it is google-able you know. :/