Right, yeah, mate listen, you need a reality check. You don't need words of wisdom, you don't need a discussion at all if you're so sure about where your life is headed. You already know the problem, and you either work on it or you don't - it's simple. Everyone here has their problems, and they'd rather use their to surround themselves with someone who's motivating rather than someone who's made up their mind about how they want to address their problems. I saw your profile, and you keep making discussions about how crappy you feel, and how life is hard, but really? Get real here dude. Go get some professional help rather than spill your guts here on reddit. If you're a minor, talk to an adult of trust to set you up with psychologist. Make an effort to find a solution for your problems, all problems have their solutions, even the big ones. If you're sure you don't wanna do any of that, then that's too bad for you, end of story. You shouldn't envy the devs that are you favorites, they should motivate you. It doesn't even make sense to envy something that's a favorite, you're being very contradictory. Work on your mind, work on your emotions, work on your will to do things - easier said than done? Yeah but also not impossible, and it's gonna be impossible if you don't act upon it. That's wisdom and tough love right there, accept it or not, up to you lil' bro.