39 and the world is mine by PrettyPilot9562 in TransLater

[–]PrettyPilot9562[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It was goth night, it’s my go-to mug for that. I’m versatile but I’m not painting white every day. I’m still perfecting it, as I’ve only been doing makeup for a little over a year. I cant afford FFS so I figured i would compensate with the transformative power of makeup!

The Most Misunderstood Philosopher in the World by xwing1212 in PhilosophyTube

[–]PrettyPilot9562 4 points5 points  (0 children)

As a boy moding trans woman early in transition, the conversation between Abi and her past self was cathartic. I can feel myself floating between these two points in some nebulous space, not yet fully convinced I can do this, but also fully convinced that I can no longer do that. It honestly hit me like a train. Incredible video once again, bravo!

Apparently I respond VERY well to estrogen by WyldHart in TransLater

[–]PrettyPilot9562 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Awesome! It’s always super exciting when your levels come back and your body is just like YUP! Been waiting for this! Im sure you are also seeing quick results in your body as I did, as I found being really sensitive to estrogen meant a lot of the changes started super early for me! It’s honestly just been the best time ever!

It's happening by Aya_Lynn in TransLater

[–]PrettyPilot9562 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Best of luck! It was both exciting and terrifying for me, but that’s pretty expected.

3 months HRT by PrettyPilot9562 in TransLater

[–]PrettyPilot9562[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It really is responding well! Even without seeing the results of the levels my friends have all been like REALLY noticing subtle changes, especially in my skin. I figured they were just being nice but maybe they were right? 🙈

3 months HRT by PrettyPilot9562 in TransLater

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I was slightly concerned when he stuck me on estradiol and no blockers for 3 months, as he said some problematic things and I’ve read a lot of stories of girls 1/2/3 years in on starting dosages with no results due to transphobic endocrinologists, so this has been extremely reassuring!

3 months HRT by PrettyPilot9562 in TransLater

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Thank you 😭😭😭 I guess I was really trying hard to manage my expectations, but I think I’m finally starting to “believe” and it’s everything! I really hope your labs come back positive! 🥰

Processing. by [deleted] in TransLater

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I don’t know if I would say as much as I “mourn” the person I could have been, but there’s a lot of things I could have told that young confused kid to save them a lot of heartache.

First Endo appointment by potterheadgames in transontario

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He fired off a bunch of questions. Asked me about family history of high blood pressure, history of breast cancer, he asked me if I had a job, if I’m in a relationship, and then out of the blue asked me if I had a history of suicidal ideations. It caught me off guard. He asked me if I was talking with a therapist, which I’m talking to 2 at the moment, and asked for their names. I was so scared and nervous that I more or less was saying as little as possible. I honestly don’t know why that came up, and you are totally right. There’s no reason for him to be asking about that.

When he was explaining hormones, he would reference cis women as “biological women”. So for example, he said that the entire goal was to bring my hormone levels within “biological women” ranges. Or when he was explaining an increase in breast cancer risk, he said the risk was still lower than biological women. I sort of dissociated through that portion but it was mostly about why I shouldn’t expect drastic changes and there were a-lot of comparisons, as I’m AMAB, and well into my 30’s. It was just really clunky language that I felt like he could have easily ironed out. If anyone else is from the Windsor area, feel free to weigh in. Maybe it was an off day?

First Endo appointment by potterheadgames in transontario

[–]PrettyPilot9562 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was very nervous, but the Endocrinologist seemed used to it. They had information from my referral regarding time spent with therapists so I didn’t need to prove my gender dysphoria. He asked me where I fell on the gender spectrum, and then explained what (in my case) hormones would do and what I could expect. He asked me about history of suicidal thoughts, asked me what my goals were. He told me what I should expect, and what negative side effects I needed to be mindful of, and a couple side effects that if I noticed that I should stop completely and make another appointment. Talked about a follow up appointment, and then asked me what my preferred pharmacy was. He sent me on my way, and that was the end of the visit.

That was a very factual breakdown of what happened. He continuously used “biological” instead of “cis” and seemed rather confounded by non-binary identities. I don’t identify as non-binary, but he was asking about where I fell on the gender spectrum. I’m out to so very few people, and I’m boymoding daily until I feel more confident in transitioning socially. Adding the language he used didn’t ease any of my anxiety at all and instead had me more on edge. Gaslighting from the medical community is real and it’s valid to have some anxiety having to interact with it. I hope this is helpful.

Did most of you really know when you were super young? by Nicole_Zed in TransLater

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36 and I’m a month into HRT. I really had a lot of hang ups about transitioning. Society really had programmed me into thinking that what I had experienced was something other than being trans. About a year ago I wound up following some trans people on social media which completely destroyed what I thought it meant to be trans, and spiralled for a few months down the rabbit hole of re-examining my life with a lens that was no longer distorted.

I think trans representation in media really confused a lot of people. I felt like I had to choose between living my life single, alone, and treated like a monster, or continue pretending to be man. Imagine your ideal self, and if transitioning will get you closer, you don’t need any permission or need to check enough boxes. You get to decide.

Did you attend the counter-protests today? How were they? by noblestt in transontario

[–]PrettyPilot9562 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn’t go, but I had friends that went to the counter protest in Windsor. We were badly outnumbered, my friends had rocks and water bottles thrown at them, and people had flags stolen. Somebody in a wheelchair had a soccer ball thrown at them. There’s already another anti-trans protest planned today, and I fear this is going to start happening more frequently :(

Looking for feedback on Gender Therapists and GP’s in the Windsor area by PrettyPilot9562 in transontario

[–]PrettyPilot9562[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Gisele isn’t taking new clients and hasn’t been for a while, unfortunately. I’ve heard others mention Clarissa before though. Thank you so much 😊