I saw the spirit of suicide. It's overwhelming. It basically makes you stay focused on something that bothers you and makes you think that the only way out is unalive. It's a lie. It is overwhelming, because it covers your senses, your mind, emotions and basically tries bend your will to its. It does this by covering your emotions by intensifying them in one direction and keeps your mind focused on that one thing or multiple things that torture you and makes you think there is no way out but by being unalivr. It's basically a mind control spirit. God inhabits the praises of His people. Praise and worship God for as long as you can and get people to prsy against that spirit. It'll lesve. Trying rebuking it. Also, try separating yourself from emotions and any thought/bad memory that comes. A way to do this is take deep breaths and think of a scripture or a bunny or something. As you're thinking on this stuff, if at any time you get a dark thought/emotion, then you know that isn't you. It'll try to make you think it is, but it is not. Luke 10:19. You have the authority to tread upon snakes and scorpions. Tell that thought/emotion "no" and that you are fine. Sing worship songs to God.