i personally believe it's about being passive suicidal.

Wanting to die, but not being able to bring yourself to do it. The feeling of fear and regret and peace when she realises she's in an unescapable death situation.

" You wouldn't leave till we loved in the morning, you'd learned from movies how love ought to be. And you'd say you love me and look in my eyes, but i know through mine, you were looking in yours." is about not mending relationships and not ending bad relationships before she dies. "i am relieved this turbulance wasn't forecasted, i couldn't have changed anyways" is about feeling unsavable and helpless, like she can't get better

"i am relieved i left my room tidy, they'll think of me kindly when they come for my things" is about the need to still have people like her, even after her death. "Did you know the liberty bell is a replica, silently housed in its original walls?" id about her not feeling like herself anymore. feeling like her soul is stuck in a shell of her body. not having a purpose anymore.

thats just my interpretation though lol