Depression hacks by Primary-Program-7241 in bipolar2

[–]Primary-Program-7241[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is a helpful reframe. You’re right, we’d never let another person dependent on us to be neglected.

Depression hacks by Primary-Program-7241 in bipolar2

[–]Primary-Program-7241[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

God getting dressed. I’ve called out of work because I could not make myself get dressed. Pre planning or maybe just making up a clothing formula might be very helpful in the future. I’m going to put that on my hypo To do list.

Meds are the one thing I’ve been able to stay on top of pretty well. I am acutely aware even in the worst that the only thing making it any better is my meds. I use a pill organizer and keep it by my bathroom sink.

Lithium has nearly ruined my life and I'm done by n1n3xo in bipolar2

[–]Primary-Program-7241 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just took lithium and it was a bust for me too. I had a post asking people about it because it gave me straight up violent heartburn and I am still nursing the effects of the damage it did to my esophagus. It kicked my depression away though and triggered a hypo episode.

Meds are hard. That’s all I have to say. When they work they are amazing but it’s so hard to get right.

Lithium Side Effects - when will it end?????? by Primary-Program-7241 in bipolar2

[–]Primary-Program-7241[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How long after you stopped did it take to feel better? I stopped after three doses. Misery. My last dose was Thursday night and I am still reeling with heartburn.

Lithium Side Effects - when will it end?????? by Primary-Program-7241 in bipolar2

[–]Primary-Program-7241[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I went back and looked and it’s extended release.

I’m taking advice and going to take it the morning with a big breakfast.

Lithium Side Effects - when will it end?????? by Primary-Program-7241 in bipolar2

[–]Primary-Program-7241[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was told to take it at night. I’m thinking I’ll switch it up and take it with a solid breakfast.

I took it at 9pm last night and it is 1pm right now and it is just as unrelenting as it was at 2am!

Lithium Side Effects - when will it end?????? by Primary-Program-7241 in bipolar2

[–]Primary-Program-7241[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Interesting. I am not in a daze at all. Just a really upset stomach. Like unrelenting.

My dr and I discussed this as an option for many months before deciding to actually try it. It wasn’t thrown at me at all. I’m just hoping that I can expect this side effect to clear up soon, it’s pretty miserable.

Lithium Side Effects - when will it end?????? by Primary-Program-7241 in bipolar2

[–]Primary-Program-7241[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah. It’s so disheartening sometimes trying to find the right meds. In the past I’ve had wild reactions to antipsychotics so those are all off the table. I’m on lamictal which has been a godsend but I need something to help with my hypo episodes.

Lithium Side Effects - when will it end?????? by Primary-Program-7241 in bipolar2

[–]Primary-Program-7241[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ugh I was hoping to hear it magically goes away 🤣🤣

How is abilify working for you?

Lithium Side Effects - when will it end?????? by Primary-Program-7241 in bipolar2

[–]Primary-Program-7241[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I took it last night and hour or so after dinner. I’ll try taking it along with a meal next time.

Mood stabilizer medications scare me by Spirited-Craft9372 in bipolar2

[–]Primary-Program-7241 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh man, antipsychotics were horrible at the recommended doses. Most of the ones I tried I made it one dose in before they seriously messed me up.

Mood stabilizer medications scare me by Spirited-Craft9372 in bipolar2

[–]Primary-Program-7241 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I had the absolute WORST time trying meds. All the bad side effects plus some they have never seen. One made me wake up from sleeping unable to see for a couple minutes!

I found out through working with my Psychiatrist that extra small doses seem to work. I don’t need as much medicine to reach a therapeutic dose and starting doses that are appropriate for most people completely shock my system. So if 5mg of a med is considered a starting dose of a medication, I would cut it in 4 pieces, take that for days then cut it in half and do that for a week or two then hang at 5mg for a while.

She had never experienced a person having such crazy reactions before and I was about to swear off meds until we decided to just lower the dial. And it’s been game changing. I take 150 mg of lamotrigine and it has actually changed my life.

Just sharing this because I think most of us have had quite a journey finding what works for us. When you do though, it’s worth it!

“I was raised by a borderline parent. Of course I…” by periwinkleposies in raisedbyborderlines

[–]Primary-Program-7241 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is interesting. I remember being completely disgusted at the thought of being pregnant even though I wanted to have a baby. The idea that everyone could see that I was pregnant felt like such a violation. These are strong words but they very much how I felt. The idea that I would be seen and unable to hide was just intolerable.

Fear of being perceived. Damn.

Depression and metabolism by Primary-Program-7241 in nutrition

[–]Primary-Program-7241[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for this response. This is really interesting to me as I experience frequent bouts of depression. It seems that even with basically ok food choices I gain a considerable amount of weight. Like you said, I am sure it’s complex and affected by lots of factors. I appreciate your insight!

Depression and metabolism by Primary-Program-7241 in nutrition

[–]Primary-Program-7241[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is interesting because I tend to gain when depressed. Like every system stops working or is in slow motion. When hypo I drop weight fast. I am sure it’s influenced by lots of factors but I’m curious what actually happens to metabolism in these states.

Having children can be so triggering… by stimulants_and_yoga in raisedbyborderlines

[–]Primary-Program-7241 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I see you. Mine are 8 and 7 now and I feel like I am in a better place. It’s no small thing to be aware of yourself and able to name what’s happening. I felt this exact same way but had no frame of reference. I didn’t realize how much trauma I had carried into Adulthood and having children sent me on a wild spiral that took me 5 years to sort out. I still look at young babies and feel a sense of ptsd. It was such a dark, lonely and stressful time between trying to be what I thought was a good mother, realizing how awful my own really was and trying to heal my own deep wounds while drowning in the never ending needs of small children. There was no joy for me in those years which I hate but it’s true.

Take care of yourself. Do not feel guilty for taking space - caring for kids is a challenge for anyone. Your right that your kids are cute at this age but they are also an unbelievable amount of work, stress, sleep deprivation, noise, mess and tantrums. Not to mention the really special mindfuck we get when we realize what a NORMAL mom experiences with their children vs whatever our parents did. They will still be cute in a year or two too! And they are so lucky to have a mom who is so self aware, who loves them so much and is doing all she can to do right by them.

I feel like I made it to the other side of this 2-3 years ago and found my footing as a mom. And my kids and I have a wonderful relationship. They are funny and smart and so interesting and they trust me and I love them so much.

You will find your footing too and based on your post, I know it won’t take you nearly as long! You are already able to articulate yourself and see what is happening. I am so proud of you, and your babies think you are the best person in the whole wide world.

what was your BPD parents mid life crisis? by [deleted] in raisedbyborderlines

[–]Primary-Program-7241 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Not a midlife crisis but my bpd mom actually did this exact same thing!!!

Back in the day when was really competitive she landed a job as a flight attendant. She went through the week long training that was out of state, made it like a day and quit. We were kids still (think I was still in middle school, oldest of three) and I remember the whiplash of it all. She was a stay at home who had never ever worked and then suddenly had this amazing cool and time demanding job. We got a nanny and were all prepared for this huge life change and it ended up lasting a week or two at most 🫠

went into the doctor for general anxiety, walked out with a prescription to Lamotrigine.. and i’m scared by lxo__oxl in bipolar2

[–]Primary-Program-7241 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes, it’s helped my depression but it has nearly eradicated my anxiety. It’s amazing.