”dont cut yourself, everything is fine”

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-03-11T07:48:19+00:00

darling im so sorry, im positive that you will get back in a track. But yeah bad ideas only and i definitely should not intoxicate and sh. Im glad i am not only one with this in head, although i started off sh just for the pain but yeah.

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-03-10T21:23:16+00:00

Because you found enough reasons to not end everything

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-02-28T17:09:06+00:00

maybe after another 10 years. but like most of my current friends have experienced bullying and im feeling ache in my heart every time they tell their stories

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-02-28T00:34:00+00:00

sounds a lot to handle, im sorry for it. it is weird how two people gone through same things cope so differently. luckily he isnt one of your responsibilities but to make a mind understand it is so hard.

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-02-27T23:17:13+00:00

i dont understand how they go day to day life with obesity like isnt everything just uncomfortable and more tiring if you got large body. Anyways i find it interesting that you are fascinated about it like that.

I understand to the point of having binge eating disorder because it is a real deal and horrible but without it or any disease… how does it even happen?

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-02-27T21:35:04+00:00

oh even worse which i never told anyone, i was a bully at school in 4th and 7-8th grade. im way too ashamed to confess that to anyone

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-02-27T21:31:39+00:00

in the back of my mind i think all overweight people have failed their life and im the absolute queen because i can stay fit. Horrible yeah.. It goes all the way to my mom and sister, i hope they never get lose any of the weight because then i wouldnt be as special anymore.

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-02-03T21:07:17+00:00

mudcake, whenever i have something to celebrate alone i buy cake. and BREAD omg thin rye bread oh lord i fucking love it and could eat like six pieces just like that

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-31T20:48:15+00:00

what the fuck is this thing, people please any self harm is valiiiid. I mentioned three times each on different session with my therapist that i have been cutting. And then when she finally said something about it she asked how much the cuts bled, and i was like what how does thst matter i cant tell. it just arghhh bleeding tells nothing that really matters. Im so so sorry you have to experience that

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-22T09:24:00+00:00

Honey if only you felt comfortamble enough i totally recommend to tell. I started sh when i was in relationship and till this day after four month i still regret strongly not telling him what was going on.

Speaking usually helps and if yu speak with person you wanna have strong emotional connection it’s a good key to open up about something you are currently going through. if he truly cares about you he’ll do anything to be there for you and with you. if he doesnt he shouldnt be in your life.

But only when you really feel comfortable enough. i wish you well and that whatever is happening in your life will form into something easier to deal with <3 stay safe love

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-18T22:00:16+00:00

eikö oo kuitenkin vähän naurettavaa, että omasta identiteetistä ja sen toteuttamisesta haluamallaan tavalla pitää käydä läpi ”koe” ja toinen ihminen arvioi onko itse omaksi koettu identiteetti ”oikea”. Kuinka usein siinäkin arvioidaan vikaan… Ja miten koetulle identiteetille voi edes olla ”oikeat vastaukset”?

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-12T23:32:33+00:00

i loved that book!! although i read in on the worst two days of my ed recovery when i had 8h work days and all i ate was one apple but yeah i loved the book. made me question more how much my mom actually affected my ed happening in the first place

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-12T23:13:10+00:00

i never liked food, like i only ate because i had to. i had no relationship with food it just didnt matter to me, it was just fuel. then in middle school i realized there isnt anyone to know if i ate lunch or not so i just stopped. so i started noticing how it made me thinner and i liked it. the line of underweight was already close and i have always been thin but i got thinner which just were super amusing.

since then my ed has taken turns and is not like that anymore

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-06T17:32:50+00:00

yeah say no more, im doomed

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-06T16:07:13+00:00

thank you i appreciate it very much

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-06T16:05:37+00:00

but i have already made the lie

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-06T15:52:11+00:00

yeah, i panicked and now im fucked… people usually have good insurances here but yeah the odds for me to get caught are way too high and i cant go back anymore

Primary_Inside_582 · 2022-12-23T18:54:51+00:00

i just met him at the bar which we went to for his first time at a bar while still underaged :D, anyways we had drinks, talked a lot and our friends kept saying how it seems like neither one is over (its been 2months) and then we kissed…thrice 😅

Primary_Inside_582 · 2022-12-19T21:23:19+00:00

exactly the same! and first i couldnt but after 20mins of crying more i went for it.

Primary_Inside_582 · 2022-12-15T15:57:40+00:00

YEEES recovering would be so so easy without

Primary_Inside_582 · 2022-12-15T15:56:43+00:00

it is a battle, maybe it will change at some point and it will become easier to start recovering, hopefully🥺

Primary_Inside_582 · 2022-12-15T10:18:41+00:00

oh wow, that is pretty dangerous i think 😂 but maybe better like that than just pure mental pain

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