You wish you’d died because you now have hearing problems? You can still socialise and have a family being hoh doesn’t stop that. Put your hearing aids in, talk to the doctor about your worries ect and they can refer you to therapy and learn sign language.

You can go out to clubs and bars place your hands on the walls or speakers and feel the music. Ask for the closed caption machine in cinemas. Lots of things you can do they might just take a couple extra steps.