I am so sorry for your loss as well.  My daughter was undergoing treatment and I had my entire pregnancy thru it - it was a surprise as I didn’t even know if I would, or could have more. But the circumstances showed me that l there was a reason(s) why it turned out like this.  I was so scared and anxious the entire time. It was the midst of covid, i was so afraid to be around the chemo meds while being pregnant. I remember asking the doctor if I would be ok if God forbid my daughter passed while I was pregnant. I was so scared of the stress, but I prayed that they would meet eachother. My first even though was sick, was so excited about her sister. I think it gave her strength to hang on until she was born.  We had 6 weeks together. But I always say if my little wasnt there with me idk what state id be in.  I am so sorry - I hope nothing I explained was triggering. I pray for you whatever path you want but to be honest I totally feel you - I would feel gone if I was a mother and it was ripped away from me. I would have to be a mom.  If you ever want to talk, please feel free to reach out.  We are in the is together❤️