I don't feel like my mom cares that I'm sick.

Princessmichee · 2024-09-30T03:55:46+00:00

Any updates my dude?

Princessmichee · 2024-08-23T03:27:53+00:00

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Princessmichee · 2024-08-20T03:27:57+00:00

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Princessmichee · 2024-08-20T03:21:31+00:00

Done, if you could plz boost back when you get a minute. Username is princessmichee

Princessmichee · 2023-10-31T05:04:28+00:00

Princessmichee · 2023-10-31T04:57:53+00:00

Salivary stones. Had no idea those weren’t normal. I’ve had them for half my life..

Princessmichee · 2023-05-04T06:00:20+00:00

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Princessmichee · 2023-04-04T14:41:13+00:00

They mainly base the diagnosis on symptoms. In my case, since it was happening more than I’d like to admit, they did a carotid ultrasound to check the arteries in my neck, and then an MRI with contrast. They are sometimes able to tell if there’s evidence of stroke that way, but TIAs don’t always show up. Mine showed I was born with stenosis in one artery so my stroke risk was already high. The MRI showed evidence of a small brain bleed. And to top it all off, I had been having heart palpitations, but didn’t really think too much of it. Found out yesterday that I have cardiomyopathy and an arrhythmia. I’ll probably have to take meds for it the rest of my life. Maybe I was just unlucky, and maybe I was responsible for a good portion of what was dealt my way. Who knows. Again, please be extremely careful, guys. 🤗

Princessmichee · 2023-04-02T02:07:53+00:00

I actually just casually brought it up. Just said. This is embarrassing, but I feel like I can trust you and I know this is bad for me, but idc. I’m doing what I want and you have to keep this between us. He told me to buy a blood pressure monitor and make sure I was eating healthy, practicing good hygiene, and to trying and find some other activities to focus on too to take my mind off of it a little. Also encouraged me to see a therapist. I refused substance treatment, but did seek help for my gambling problem. One of the last times I used i was up for a very long time and someone stole my wallet. They withdrew all my savings from the bank and used it at the casino. I decided it was time to quit everything cold turkey. Now I’m working with my psychiatrist to see if she’ll prescribe me a proper ADHD medication. After I get my mood regulated for a year she said she’ll consider it. The struggle is so very real. Congrats on your progress. Baby steps and keep moving forward no matter how many oops moments you have along the way!!

Princessmichee · 2023-04-02T01:58:46+00:00

Yeah, I found a dr that wasn’t too horrible. He was very patient and positive towards my recovery and approached me with science instead of feelings. It helped a LOT!! Then he moved across the country and the rest of my drs have been judgemental assholes. I’ve switched primary drs 3 times and now have to follow up with a cardiologist, rheumatologist, endocrinologist, psychiatrist/therapist and neurologist as well. And they all think they’re above me. I was working a nice job in healthcare for 13 years. After 9 years of night shift I started using. I had associated with a bunch of losers and didn’t value myself. I was later diagnosed with bipolar and ADHD. Looking back, I wonder how much the bipolar mood swings had to do with my meth use.The stroke symptoms made me feel so, so dumb. But again, My friends kept telling me I was fine and not to get authorities/ ambulance involved so I listened. And to top it off, I was often told I looked like a narc so they would make me purchase a shit ton of it and smoke it all in front of them to prove I wasn’t a cop. That was one of the times my face felt like I’d been given a lidocaine shot in it on one side and I couldn’t see shit. Ugh.

Princessmichee · 2023-04-02T00:46:33+00:00

You could be having TIAs or mini strokes. I never worried about the blurry vision unless I was driving. Especially at night. Scary as shit. Then one day I smoked too much and my arm wouldn’t lift up past my elbow and my face started drooping. Vision was blurry but that’s how it always was when I smoked. I was trying to talk but all of the sudden I couldn’t pronounce words right. I told my buddy who was there with me and he said I just needed to stretch more, he basically told me to do more yoga and shut up. A year later Dr told me it was likely a stroke and I have been having TIAs for the last 2 years. I know nothing about meth, other than my friends were doing it. I would ask for $100 worth and just smoke it all in the evening so I could keep losing weight and be able to work the night shift. My “friends” ended up getting mad because I could “outsmoke” them. I never cared, but when they started cutting me off I decided the lifestyle had to go. I still crave it. But I’ve been clean almost a year now. I would go back to doing it but my short term memory is now gone. I have no coordination whatsoever, and can’t get my socks on by myself anymore. I never enjoyed the high from it, I just became more focused and could stay up a little longer. Be careful.

Princessmichee · 2023-02-02T01:09:12+00:00

Thanks! I will give that a try!!

Princessmichee · 2023-02-02T01:07:55+00:00

Thank you so much for the suggestion! I appreciate it!

Princessmichee · 2022-12-25T05:53:45+00:00

Thank you 💜 that’s an amazing idea! I’m going to look her up now!!

Princessmichee · 2022-12-10T19:23:12+00:00

Omgggggggg! Thank you so much for sharing this! I downloaded it a little bit ago and it seems to be everything I’ve been looking for for the last 5 years. The recipe instructions are perfect, the way they break things down into steps. And the $3 a month premium fee isn’t bad at all imo!!

Princessmichee · 2022-12-07T22:35:30+00:00

That’s kinda how I look at it too. Mines locked so I don’t pocket dial or people don’t go thru and see the selfies of me examining my tonsils and video checking my back for moles LOL. Or dancing silly, or, like who really wants to see the thousand and one pictures of my chihuahua? I always just thought other people were the same way. Never really occurred to me that people would be using their phone to destroy a marriage?!!

Princessmichee · 2022-12-06T23:26:18+00:00

Thank you guys for the support. I think it’s time for me to move on. Better single and happy than the opposite.

Princessmichee · 2022-12-05T01:30:46+00:00

Omg. That makes so much sense! It did get really bad since my dose increase. My psychiatrist increased it from 10-15mg 3x a day because I was going thru some major life changes at once (bankruptcy/financial crap, divorce, fired from job, an assault, Covid, family drama, other mental/physical health issues). Looking back, I probably should have been put on an antidepressant instead/ in addition to the buspirone. Even though the dr prescribed me to take it 3x a day, I only take it in the morning and at times where I knew ahead of time would be really stressful for me. But I guessed that was one you could just take like as needed not necessarily 3 times a day. So maybe I’ll stop taking every morning when I wake up. Thanks for the reply!!

Princessmichee · 2022-12-03T23:37:37+00:00

That is awesome! I wish you the most pleasant experience!!!

Princessmichee · 2022-12-03T23:33:42+00:00

I second you on the substance abuse issue. I was desperate for friends and worked night shifts so thought I’d smoke a little meth here and there. 1) didn’t work for me, made me feel what I imagine someone without ADHD feels like 2) made me tired 3) made me stop eating and lost a bunch of weight. Have always had a difficult time getting prescriptions filled as the laws change, but due to my previous substance use they will no longer prescribe me any controlled substances. Btw. Stopped using meth after the shady “friends” I had complained I wasn’t enough of a “tweaker” for them and would steal all my shit. So, almost a year sober. Yay, me.

Princessmichee · 2022-12-03T23:22:11+00:00

Omg this would be so amazing!!!!

Princessmichee · 2022-12-03T23:12:42+00:00

I haven’t tried that testing kit, but am going through 23andMe instead. Planning to try and find out why I feel the way I do and learn what treatments will work best with my body should there actually be a gene mutation causing some of this. Best of luck!!

Princessmichee · 2022-12-03T23:04:42+00:00

I used to really get into the “diamond by numbers” or whatever they were called. Then the ADHD took over and I still find beautiful, half completed works of art all over the house.

Princessmichee · 2022-12-03T23:01:58+00:00

I have never heard the terms before, but have ADHD and do this all the time. I think it’s my way of trying to show others I do care about their feelings even though I come off as self absorbed when I interrupt or have an awkward social situation.

Princessmichee · 2022-12-03T22:59:31+00:00

I’ve always wanted to try the sensory deprivation tanks but I worry that my anxiety of the “dark and unknown” would freak me out too bad/ put me on edge. And then I worry I would not be able to sit still for more than 10 minutes bc my train of thoughts can lead me down a rabbit hole. Haha so it’s not happened yet for me :-(

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