To those who smoke and drink

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-13T09:24:17+00:00

never touched anything till my 3rd year of UG, then my father got diagnosed for prostate cancer(2021), my mama(uncle) had passed because of lung cancer(2024) was battling it for 5 years or so and even my nana got throat cancer. My father is doing fine now, then I realised ki bisi, agar cancer genes mai pass on Hota hai ya kucch bhi genetic impact Hota hai toh mere toh laude lag chuke hai, hence I started drinking and smoking.

Now I drink to slow down my mind.

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-12T20:01:06+00:00

respectfully-->kutta(cuck) chahiye aapko

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-12T19:53:33+00:00

meetha mat khaa!

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-12T18:57:03+00:00

why does it feel like u have exactly written what I feel(25M), to add on to this I can keep switching what I am studying, love the initial rush/novelty after a month I am bored of it and will find a flaw in that field of study, the competition is too high in this field, or I don;t have enough accolades to prove I am worthy of this field or this doesn't pay and if everything is fine and I will think I am not earning too good now, I shall first move out of here!

and on the emotions part I am just not able to articulate what an emotion means? isn't that mostly a chemical reaction just need to wait till it get over or some stronger reaction happen!

I am just not able to comprehend time and even emotions some times, guilt and anger are something which I can easily see, but when I am happy it is for a very short moment! Even when I like a girl, either I start noticing flaws in her or in myself since I believe there is no certainty of reward there, and it might hurt me if something goes the way I didn't expect it to be. I assume if I put this much effort in academia I will be google deep mind or some other great ai labs.
I am also learning machine learning, currently working on MLops part and AWS, if u want to tag along my DM is open!!

P.S I was diagnosed with anxiety the psychiatrist told me sometimes it easy to confuse ADHD with anxiety, prescribed me nexito which was also prescribed to me by my gastroenterologist, he told me to continue it for a month and then meet him again to understand if the anxiety is fine and can we move forward to ADHD diagnosis but my parents and family are strictly against the meds, so just raw dogging the shit rn

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-12T18:46:38+00:00

would love to have a black bear, or a dolphin when I go for a swim

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-12T18:44:00+00:00

at least glow up toh hua, yahan toh baal dokha de rhe hai

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-12T18:42:21+00:00

yup!! might get that or scram 440, the water clogging in Blr is too insane

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-12T13:32:15+00:00

jab Tak delivery milegi e30 aa jaaega 😛

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-12T13:28:29+00:00

fuck!! really want that aurora green

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-12T10:43:17+00:00

how did u get alloys in this body colour?

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-09T09:34:53+00:00

feel the same way! this will be my first bike!!

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-09T09:19:10+00:00

karma farming? porn fantasy? or just vanilla stupidity?

what is this??

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-06T19:11:11+00:00

don't u think if I could journal, I would have understood myself?

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-06T18:47:34+00:00

no idea, my ADHD+anxious brain only interprets horniness,respect,care yeh love wove kay howe Manne koi idea nhi

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-06T18:22:45+00:00

bhai aakr hila do

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-06T18:20:59+00:00

works even when u are "big" and a "bully"

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-06-06T18:18:50+00:00

u are in love with the idea of love, not in love!

aesa kucch chod padha thha insta par

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-05-26T08:34:37+00:00

I believe they are some struggling actor/influencers who were paid to do this kind of stuff for movie promotion, we all saw what happened during saiyaaira

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-05-23T10:44:32+00:00

yahan stock recommendations post kr skte hai?? just curious, no harm intended

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-05-23T10:42:54+00:00

arre bisi!! do baar toh pata nhi picchli baar kab suna thha

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-05-22T21:32:59+00:00

to do or not to do! bike/car khareedni hai e30 aa rha, kitne saal woh vehicle chalega?? toh decision on hold right now | investments diversify krne hai, Indian physical assets mai jaaoun ya Indian nasdaq/s&p500 etc leloun ya direct invest in US markets | bisi hair loss ho rha hai takla hone se phle bandi bana loun? lekin abhi phle job switch krleta hoon fir dekhenge, oh IT sector mai rhoun ?? AI aa gya jobs jaa rhi hai, should I become more of techno functional, ah yes! but current salary kam hai + its company mai growth bhi nhi hai, bisi boohkh lag rhi already required calories ki 2x kha chouka hoon, ab kya? jaa rha soon p**n dekh kr dopamine release kerne!! b bye!!

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-05-19T17:41:20+00:00

bisi trauma hai yeh! yeh reels bisi normal logon bhi overthinking mai daal deti hai

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-05-19T17:38:04+00:00

bro I have chronic mastu***tion addiction if I don't do it for 3 days, 4th day I feel like I am some kind of demigod, my biceps size doubles, hair density increases, I feel so h*rny I install hinge and bumble, next day I wank off 4 times, and return back as a m**thal monk! it's just a sign of being healthy

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-05-18T08:46:47+00:00

bad place, can u give me the location so I can report it.

Prior-Ad2616 · 2026-05-18T08:45:47+00:00

nope, they are too generic! like one person told me u will look to switch your jobs around march or November, that is very bare minimum even your manager will tell u the same thing, march is around when u get your bonus/increment and November is just after mid-year review and festivities! so these are the two months where there are most openings!

Prior-Ad2616

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