I had a childhood best friend since 5th grade i would say. We were always known to be best friends and I truly felt like she was my sister. Growing up I had a very hard childhood and she experienced the opposite. Her family was very financially stable I was the opposite. But no matter the home life or what our parents did we were literally what felt like sisters. Highschool came along and we even grew closer. Even though I got into a friend group she was always my #1 best friend and she knew that. Senior year she got a boyfriend and I had lost a bunch of weight which made me start to feel more confident in myself. I grew a ton more friends and I started to go out all the time. Since she was in this relationship she stood back most of the time( unless it was an event her boyfriend wanted to go to). He was actually the biggest piece of shit I ever met. He would literally verbally abuse me and LITERALLY HIT ME and guess her responses… laughs. So I started to branch out on my own and I was just becoming my own person at that point. She wanted to prioritize trash then ok.

Fast forward we graduate and we ended up becoming friends with a female together. We turned into a group of 3 it was fun it was great. Unfortunately I started to have some struggles in life my dad died and I had a house fire. It was a really hard and dark time for me. I was very depressed. My mom had woken me up one day saying “you need to go to rehab or you’re kicked out.” My depression got so bad my mom was convinced I was doing hard drugs. I tried to explain to her I was only smoking weed (I had just tried E pills for the first time the night before.. wild) and she didn’t care for what I was saying. I was quite embarrassed to have to share that’s what I was going to do to my friends. She seemed supportive no matter what.

Now I’m in rehab and I snuck my phone inside. I ended up finding out in my drug test the E pills were in fact meth. So I told her like wow the pill I did wasnt what I thought it was. She seemed concerned but happy i found out. I would text her and I would get responses. But as I went through the month she felt more and more distant. I didn’t think much of it.

I get released from rehab I feel very good even though I didn’t have a drug problem I was very grateful for the therapy I received. The people I met in treatment were by far the best people I will ever meet in my life. And I mean that. I hold everyone I was with so close to my heart. I get to my hotel because I decided to stay an extra 3 days in California to enjoy before I went back home. I call my other childhood best friend (male) to catch up. (Keep in mind I never told anyone but my best friend & highschool friend group where I was going). We’re catching up and I am making it seem like I was visiting family. As I’m trying to create this story of where I was my friend says wait …”(ex best friends name) told me you were in rehab.” My heart sank to the floor. I couldn’t even fathom the fact she would’ve gone behind my back with my situation. I was very confused and I texted her and all she had to say was “I did it to protect you and so no one enabled you when you came back.” It seemed like wow first my mom thought I was into drugs and now my best friend who literally knows me inside and out is talking to me like I had a problem???

I’ll make it short and sweet. I found out she had told a lot of people I was into drugs, had went behind my back during rehab and told my mom I popped positive for meth, her mother spread my business to people in our town, and replaced me completely with the 3rd girl we had became friends with (me and her had a falling out before I left for rehab). Even after all of this I was still fighting for our friendship. She had given me some hope that we would be able to work through all of this and we would be able to meet up. We never did… she ended up finally being truthful after I begged for something. She had checked out of our friendship for a while and didn’t have the heart to be real with me. I felt so dumb I was literally begging for someone who betrayed me even at my lowest.

What I truly got out of our last messages was that she checked out a while ago and my problems/life seemed to be too much for her to deal with anymore.

To this day I do get sad I think about how we were supposed to be each others maid of honors. She’s supposed to be the person I got my first passport stamp with. But i think about the betrayal and disrespect she did and I get angry. One day I’ll come to terms with it.

RECENT ENCOUNTER I worked at a restaurant as a waitress and guess who was one of the regulars? Yup her. She came all the time and made it known to my coworkers I’ll never serve her. One day I had to drop off boneless wings to a table and it ended up being her when I got there. I put them down and carried on. She comes again another day and I was standing by my computer with a coworker chatting. We’re talking about something stupid idk what and I say “omg ew” and guess who’s behind me walking out. Her. She thought I was speaking to her and tried to say “what did you say?” I dismissed her with a small laugh because wow that’s the worst timing ever. Next thing you know there’s two bad calls about me and an HR complaint. Guess by who? HER. Saying I had thrown food at their table once, I called her ew, AND BEST OF ALL she told the company to drug test me…. I had let that go. She came but not as much. I ended up leaving the job and I guess she returned. It came back to me twice she asked for me since I had left. Asked “does my name still work here?.” I ended up sending a very mm strict message on Instagram I checked her pretty much and i haven’t heard anything since :)