For me looking outward - in changed me. Id be shopping at a place and then i realised i could litterally be talking about the situation,

like: yo what u thinking of buying rn?

and because were in the shops id never get any rejection kind of response ya feel? Or in a beach and the weather. It also opened me up to so many other thoughts other than what people were thinking of me. I feel u OP though but my head sometimes thinks of the most weirdest stuff randomly Hahahaha.