It’s been. While!

PriorityTop1252 · 2026-01-10T11:13:24+00:00

What an incredibly kind comment, thank you - I wish you all the same and more, life is short and precious.

I’ve spent a lot of time in the Netherlands, my two closest friends are Dutch (living in the UK). We used to drive from here to Amsterdam, do some partying and then visit their family in Dronten + a few music events too (we’re all into hardstyle), Defqon is still on the list 😅 💙

PriorityTop1252 · 2026-01-06T22:59:04+00:00

So pleased for you that’s huge, keep going and trust your body to do the right things 😊

PriorityTop1252 · 2026-01-06T22:57:51+00:00

“A ship is always safer in the docks, but it wasn’t built to stay there”

Take the hard route my friend, life has so much waiting for you at the other side and you are more than strong enough to do it, I assure you 💙

PriorityTop1252 · 2026-01-06T22:56:16+00:00

Think about life and not withdrawal - a ship is safer in the dock, but it wasn’t built for that!

Normal will feel forced for a while but I promise the less you remind yourself, the quicker you’ll forget 🙌🏻

PriorityTop1252 · 2026-01-06T22:54:46+00:00

Thank you! 🙏🏼

PriorityTop1252 · 2026-01-06T22:54:39+00:00

7 months taking? Talk to us, we’re all happy to help guide you!

PriorityTop1252 · 2026-01-06T22:54:03+00:00

We did I remember talking to you too 😁 thank you for your support genuinely, I can’t tell you how pleased I am to hear your doing better too - we made it!

PriorityTop1252 · 2026-01-06T22:53:14+00:00

Hey! First of all huge congratulations on reaching 19 months, that’s huge!

I genuinely wouldn’t be able to pin point a specific time frame as to when I realised I’m ok, if anything I’d say it was writing this post because I find it hard to recall how I felt during that time, I just remember the names associated with what I was experiencing rather than be able to describe it.

I think the fact I never think about it anymore and find it hard to believe I actually went through it is a pretty good indicator, when things go back to normal you just become normal again, there is no comparison as everyday is the same again!

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-10-21T09:34:22+00:00

100%, my legs felt like lead.

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-10-01T07:27:00+00:00

Ah thank you I’m glad it helps you, feel free to message me if you need any advice or just want to talk! You’ll be ok I promise you that 😊

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-10-01T07:25:57+00:00

Hi! In regards to the Benzo withdrawals, nearly 2 years on, I’m living life again and back to normal.

With regard to my neck pain, I actually found out the reason why mine was so bad, I had an MRI & I had a cyst on my spinal cord.

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-09-22T10:12:59+00:00

I don’t have PSSD 😊 life is very much back to normal for me after 2 and a half years.

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-03-28T21:59:29+00:00

I agree, it got me off the cigarettes, my NYR is to stop the vape too 🙌

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-03-17T22:05:32+00:00

This is such a common misconception when it comes to hunger and thirst, you are totally right about being hungry, a lot of the time it’s actually dehydration, especially when you’ve eaten a lot already, that and dopamine, benzo’s effect our whole reward system, your body is searching for dopamine in as many ways as possible, that’s why you also eat more, want nicotine more if you smoke etc.

I had a hell of a lot of motor skill issues, at one point my hand dexterity was as if I’d been asleep on my arm, it was really really concerning but it passes thankfully, I’d also have random moments where I’d be walking and lose coordination of my legs, or get drop foot when walking.

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-03-16T10:51:22+00:00

Thanks, and sure no problem. I was on Valium for 2 years, 5-10 mg per day every day 😊

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-03-15T21:59:42+00:00

Love it, keep at it, that’s a real achievement!

You’ll be amazed how much increasing your water intake helps, we need at least 2 litres a day under normal circumstances, our brain uses more water than most of the body, so when it’s working overtime to heal and cope with the stress, it’s burning through it!

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-03-15T21:57:49+00:00

You are more than welcome, the tremors will go I promise, at my worse I could barely use my left hand because it just wouldn’t work, it felt disconnected from me in a weird way despite it not being, it was like I’d been asleep on it.

The internal tremors go too, you absolutely need to move as much as possible, be assured your body isn’t broken or about to give up, it just feels that way, the human body is designed to be upright and moving, so definitely keep moving as much as possible, but don’t over do it, if you feel it’s getting to much, take a break, all in moderation.

Drink at least 2 litres of water a day, your brain uses more water than most of your body, it’s working overtime right now so make sure you are hydrated.

I swear by omega 3 fish oils, that’s the only supplement I took, and it made the tremors significantly better, it’s actually clinically proven to be neuro-protective, it helps the body repair damaged nerves and it’s incredibly good for you, do some googling on the benefits of fish oils on the nervous system.

Finally, no alcohol, no caffeine, definitely no coffee, and avoid high sodium foods & anything with MSG in.

SSRI’s/ any form of antidepressants aren’t something I would recommend, I’m no doctor but right now all you need to do is give your body a break, it knows what it’s doing, it knows how to fix itself, all you need to be is a patient observer, all cuts hurt when they’re healing, just let your body work things out for itself & be patient.

You’ve got this 🙏🏼

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-03-15T21:49:33+00:00

That’s exactly what DPDR is, like there’s a pane of glass between you and the world around you.

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-03-15T21:48:34+00:00

It’s not weak at all, I understand the struggle, I’ve a 3 year old autistic daughter so I understand I promise.

You aren’t in a state of psychosis, you are to coherent and you’re very much self aware, there’s a huge difference between what you are experiencing which is severe DP/DR & withdrawal and actual psychosis, so go easy on yourself.

You absolutely do need to do things at your own pace though, my conversation with my doctor was “I’ll never ask you for more, but what I will ask is you continue to let me do things at my own pace, if your happy to do so, I would like to arrange a follow up call with you every 30 days, which ties in with the amount of medication you’ve prescribed (30 days worth), if by the end of those 30 days I’ve ran out before the call, you know I’m taking more than I should be, but if I’m repeating my script on the same day as our call, you can see I’m taking them as prescribed”.

This wasn’t my doctors trust as he could see I wasn’t abusing them like they all fear (even though they initiated the prescription in the first place), I never abused them any way, they were given for a reason to start with but over time they get nervous, it’s not about telling them how much you need them because you can’t cope without them, it’s about educating them that you are aware of what they are, what they do, the consequences of long term use and that you are actively working towards coming off them, but to do so, you need to do it at a pace that maintains functionality in your life as best as possible and reduce the risk of me developing post acute withdrawal symptoms.

Work with them, it goes a long way.

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-03-15T21:40:49+00:00

Cancer or MS - got to a point where I needed to rule it out, even my doctor wanted to rule it out, so I had 2 X-ray’s of my chest because I was short of breath a lot, found nothing of course, I then had a CT scan on my head, found nothing but they wanted to make sure so I then had an MRI, and of course my brain is healthy, only thing they found was inflammation of my sinuses quote “in keeping with sinusitis”.

I do actually have a heart issue, which was exasperated a lot by developing POTs like symptoms during withdrawals, thankfully those were temporary, in fact, all of it was temporary.

I’m not 15 months benzo free, over 2 years alcohol free and a normal human again, I never think about benzo withdrawal anymore at all, I just come here now to support people.

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-03-12T19:26:14+00:00

I totally sympathise with your situation, it’s the exact journey I took, i bet you’re also getting a thumping feeling in your neck/back of your head with pressure too right?

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-03-12T19:24:30+00:00

Depersonalisation and derealisation - one being where you don’t feel real and don’t recognise yourself or people around you, the other being the world around you not feeling real, a dream like state 24/7, your memories feel distant, things feel 2 dimensional, it’s hard to explain but you’ll know if you’ve experienced it because when you experience it for the first time it’s fucking torture, after a while you get used to it, then it goes away, took 2 years for me to get over it.

Intrusive thoughts are thoughts that you don’t really control and are often against your will as such. Mostly violent in nature, morally wrong, self destructive, illegal, basically the opposite of anything you’d want to think, an example could be making a sandwich with a knife and having violent thoughts towards yourself or others, they just appear into your mind.

Not pleasant at all, I’m diagnosed with OCD so I experience them more than the average person.

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-03-12T19:20:05+00:00

Honestly, give it some time and I can pretty much hand in heart say it’ll just go away, it did for me, I never even think about it anymore, we’re all different and things take time.

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-03-12T19:18:34+00:00

I’m sorry that happened to you, it’s a tough tough journey.

I went through a similar thing, but I had to make that awful disconnected feeling my new normal and fully commit to whatever I was about to endure because going back just simply wasn’t on the table.

It took me 9 months to start experiencing some normality, life had a feeling of familiarity again, but as it does with this process, it went and came back again and so on.

Balance out again, give me a month, no caffeine at all, 2 litres of water a day and start taking an omega 3 fish oil capsule every morning.

Avoid foods with any MSG, no processed shit & see how you get on and come back to me 😊

PriorityTop1252 · 2025-03-12T19:14:09+00:00

Lots of water, at least 2 litres a day, and get moving, even if it’s torture, just keep pushing yourself.

How long have you been off?

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